My Heart Breaks as my Love For You Increases every second, of every day.

Happy Birthday Na'Zyia!

I Love You

All this Love, is for You

Na'Zyia.  I pray that You are having the greatest birthday, with Kwaku and Amari.  With, Oshone and Ife. 

Daddy is thinking of You constantly. 
Daddy Loves You with all that I am.

Happy Birthday, Na'Zyia.

Love,

Daddy

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NA'ZYIA SKYE!!

Sunday, July 31st/2016

Happy Birthday Na'Zyia!!!

I Have put a lot of thought into this gift, for Your Beautiful Birthday!!  Here is Your watch and bracelet set for Your birthday!

I Love You

Daddy Loves You.

Love,

Daddy

Happy Birthday Na'Zyia Skye

Sunday, July 31st/2016

Happy Birthday Na'Zyia Skye

I Love You so much.  I Miss You so much.

Here is Your Golden Necklace On Your Special Day!

Love,

Daddy

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NA'ZYIA SKYE

Happy Birthday Na'Zyia Skye

I Love You!!

Here is Your Birthday Cake on Your Special Birthday!

Love,

Daddy

Happy BIRTHDAY NA'ZYIA SKYE!!

Sunday, July 31st/2016

Happy Birthday Na'Zyia Skye.

Daddy Loves You with all my heart!

Happy BIRTHDAY NA'ZYIA SKYE!!

Sunday, July 31st/2016

Happy Birthday Na'Zyia Skye.

Daddy Loves You with all my heart!

Happy BIRTHDAY NA'ZYIA SKYE!!

Sunday, July 31st/2016

Happy Birthday Na'Zyia Skye!!

Below are the cards I bought for You for Your Special Day.

Daddy Loves You!

Happy BIRTHDAY NA'ZYIA SKYE!!

Sunday, July 31st/2016

Happy Birthday Na'Zyia Skye!!

Below are the cards I bought for You for Your Special Day.

Daddy Loves You!

Happy BIRTHDAY NA'ZYIA SKYE!!

Sunday

July 31st/2016
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NA'ZYIA SKYE
DADDY LOVES YOU!

Happy BIRTHDAY NA'ZYIA SKYE!!

Sunday

July 31st/2016
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NA'ZYIA SKYE
DADDY LOVES YOU!

Happy BIRTHDAY NA'ZYIA SKYE!!

Sunday, July 31st/2016

Happy Birthday Na'Zyia Skye.

Daddy Loves You with all my heart!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NA'ZYIA SKYE

 

Sunday, July 31st/2016

Happy BIRTHDAY NA'ZYIA

DADDY LOVES YOU

Good Morning Na'Zyia (Birthday GIRL) Oshone Amari Kwaku Ife

Good morning BIRTHDAY GIRL!!!
Good morning Amari
Good morning Kwaku
Good morning Na'Zyia
Good morning Ife

I Love You
I hope that You rested well.

I wish for You to have the most beautiful day!

Love,

Daddy

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NA'ZYIA SKYE YAISA-ROSE KWEEN

Happy Birthday, Na'Zyia!!!

I Love You more than You could ever know!

I reflected on all the events leading up to Your delivery in the hospital.  This was such a wondrous day, Na'Zyia.  Everything leading up to Your birth was so special.  From the ambulance to the umbilical cord.  I have so many thoughts leading towards Your perfection.

I really hope You have the best day ever!

I Love You

Photo's to come in just a moment.

I Miss You
I Love You

Love,

Daddy

46 MINUTES TILL YOUR BIRTHDAY, NA'ZYIA SKYE!!!

I Love You so much, Na'Zyia! 
I Miss You so much, Na'Zyia!

I pray that You have the best birthday tomorrow!

I wanted to tell You that i've learned that stars explode in the vastness of the cosmos, millions of miles away. They spread their enriched elements into You! So that the atoms in your right arm come from a star in the distant night sky, while atoms in your left arm come from another star equally far away!  Therefore;
You, yourself are - a Star!

I Love You Na'Zyia

Love,

Daddy

All I was, was nothing. All I am is Love

I am Love.

I am on the way to Your Heart because I am pure.  I am true.

I am ashamed of who'm I once was. 

Daddy

I Have Your Gifts!!

Good evening, Na'Zyia

I spent the day shopping for Your birthday presents.  Whew!  What a time I had.

However, this was a successful endeavor because I finally selected the perfect (I think) presents for You.  The cashier asked me who these gifts are for, and I said "my Daughter".  She then said, "well, she is going to feel spoiled when you give them to Her".  I put my head down.  Tears almost came to my eyes, but I held strong and shook them off.  She said "what's the matter?".  I said, "I will not be able to give them to her anytime soon".  She said, "well that's too bad".  I said, "everything happens for a reason, and one must stay positive". 

Recall that I believe in finding the good in every situation.  There is always a way to reconfigure perceived negative outcomes into positive experiences.  You must remain positive.

You must be strong!

I Love You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love You

Na'Zyia, I will post the photo's of Your gifts (as I said previously) tomorrow (Sunday, July 31st/2017).

I Love You Na'Zyia

Love,

Daddy

Na'Zyia!! Your Birthday is Tomorrow!!

Good morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia (Birthday Girl!!), Ife

I Love You.  I stayed awake until 4am thinking of You.  I prayed several times throughout the night on my knees.  I begged God to show me a way.  To help me find my way back to You.  It is because I Love You so much.  This hurts me so bad.  It hurts me deeply, not being with You.  I prayed.  I begged.

Na'Zyia.  I am going to pick up Your gifts today for Your birthday tomorrow.  I am putting them in Your room and will post pictures of what I bought You for Your special day.  It is because I Love You so much that I do these things, although I am not allowed..

I Just Love You

Love,

Daddy

Good Night Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia (Birthday Girl) Ife

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I have been thinking about You all day!  I have been missing You.  There is this ache in my heart that has not gone away for four years now.  Every single day, I die inside.  It hurts in a way I could not have seen coming.  I am forever sorry for all the wrong I have done in my life.

I was thinking; when I moved out, I wanted to move into the place I am living now.  The reason is because my goal was to get a house for You to live in.  It took me three years to get this house, but I finally have it.  I have so many more goals, but I realize the time it takes to accomplish them is what causes people to lose faith in me, which I understand.  I have done more wrong to make people lose faith in me.  In fact, when I put myself in others shoes, I would hate me.  Although I hate no one, I just understand...

It is hard to put these feelings into words. 

I Love

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I will attach more photos. It's just that sometimes, it hurts to bad.

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

Good Morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love You with all my heart, Oshone
I Love You with all my heart, Amari
I Love You with all my heart, Kwaku
I Love You with all my heart, Na'Zyia
I Love You with all my heart, Ife

Good Night Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Hello Children,

Just about to unwind from a long day at work.  I wanted to say that I Love You and I have thought about You all day and night.  I Miss You so much!!!

I pray that You had a wonderful day, filled with Joy!  All that I want in Your lives is Joy.

Good Night Oshone
Good Night Amari
Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Ife

Daddy Loves You

.. and Daddy Misses You so much

Love,

Daddy

Question?

Why would a great worldly known producer need/work with another producer?  Who would make a great collabo today?  Who was a great collabo? (name track too)

Such a brilliant question.  This comes from, to me, a person who truly cares about another person (in that time).  I was too blind.. so blind to see the truth (in that time).  I am forever sorry.  I am forever shamed.

Answer;

To have a fresh set of ears in the studio to hear what another person is not hearing is one reason two producers would collaborate.  Creativity is what brings forth the best music.  Originality is what separates good music, from great music.  Music that stands the test of time comes from the soul.  From deductive reasoning, would not two souls be better than one?  So to answer this question; I think the new spark of energy coming from an external source could generate increased creativity and take a song that did not exist in this plane of existence, manifested through a secondary source, and bring it to life.  Life here on Earth.

A great collaborative effort between Quincy Jones and The Rza would be sensational!

There is a song called "Numbers on the Board" by Pusha T that was introduced to me by my brother "Kyu" I think is sonically superior.  I'm strictly talking about the production.  The producers of that song are Kanye West & Swiss Beats.  You would have to google Swiss Beats - Numbers on the Board to hear his contribution.  I'm not a fan of any of these artists, but could not deny how great the music sounds.

I Love You

Arriving home from the bank

Hi Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I have just arrived home from the bank.  Everything I say, is the truth.  There are things I am not afraid to tell You, as they demean myself, however, the truth is what I stand for.  Always tell the truth, is another lesson in life I would teach You if I were allowed in Your lives.  It is so much deeper, especially from my point of view.  The truth is more valuable than any money or material item that can be purchased.  As You grow, You learn the simple things in life are the most difficult to acquire.  Love, Honesty, and Loyalty are three of these priceless notions I speak of.

I have sent money to You, as I said I would today.  I will continue to send more each month.

I Love You

I hope You have a fantastic day Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

I really need and miss You.

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

Last Nights Dream of You - Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

I pray that You have a wonderful day, today.  All Your days, I pray are joyous.  This reminds me of the prayer that I said for You last night before I went to bed.  My prayers are genuine, and so much so that I always say the things I want for You in moments of my prayers, but when sitting here at my desk, the words never seem to come out right.  The first part of my prayer (as I fight to recall);

"Dear God, I pray that Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife do not have a care in the world.  That they are care-free.  This is when happiness is most pure.  That their happiness far exceeds any happiness I have ever known".

These are how my prayers for You unfold.  Always expressed in terms of Your best interests.  Every choice I make, is for Your best interests.  Again, this reminds me of my dream.  I dreamt that we were all on a beach, in the Caribbean Islands.  Their was so much joy.  Their was such smiles of delight on Your faces.  The sun was shining, the Ocean was beautiful, The wind was ever flowing, and the Tree's, Birds, and most of all- You 5 amazing Children were all present in my most amazing dream.

Every choice I make, is for Your best interests.  I will not play with life.  I take life very seriously.  I strive to make six figure income by September 2016.  I am getting close.  I am not playing with life.

I do this, for You.
Nothing is impossible.

I Love You,

Daddy

Good Night Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I pray that You are all resting well, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife. 

I have just come in from work and am sitting at the desk writing You to say that I have thought of You all day, and that I Love You so much. 

I was thinking.  The man that I have become; I do not want to share with anyone else.  This may seem selfish, but I feel that I owe You everything.  I want to say one thing very clearly.  I am a completely different person than the father You once knew.  I have evolved.  I have searched deep within myself for pure good.  I need You to hear me.  I have searched for the good in me, in order to eliminate the bad.  It is a painful process, because it means I have been lying to myself for years.  Telling myself I was a good person.  Now I know the truth.  Now I am truly becoming the greatest human being I can be.

I want to do this for myself, but it is the influence of You - Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife. 

I Love You so much.  I was also thinking while at work, that I would love to take You on ski trips!  It just occurred to me how I feel You would enjoy this trip so much.

As always, I pray You are resting well (it is 1:36 am) and are full.  Full of healthy food, love, and joy.  Joy in anticipation of what tomorrow may bring.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia (Birthday Girl!!!)
I Love You Ife

Goodnight babies,

Love

Daddy

Good afternoon Children.

Good afternoon Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love You.  I am on my way to work, and You are on my mind.  I hurt deeply, inside because I am not allowed to see You.  I write these words, to keep my spirit strong in missing You, and wanting to be actively involved in Your lives.

I understand, this is my punishment.

I Love You

I Miss You

Love,

Daddy

Oshone Osai, Amari Mosiah, Kwaku Oluwasei Na'Zyia Skye Ife Lia'Jasiri

Good morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love You.

I dreamt last night that we were all taking swimming lessons.  I am more than able to traverse the waters, however, I would not display an audacity giving me the confidence to believe that I could teach You.  I would hire a professional, and enjoy Your company while You learn.  It is important to learn when You are young.  There are so many things You should learn when You are young, such as a second language (or more), developing an interest in mathematics and physics, chemistry, biology, English literature, music theory, various physical activities (tennis, golf, and many other sports).

I would give anything to be with You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.  Know this.

I Love You, and have a blessed day.

Daddy

Good Night Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Hello Oyo, Mosi, Kijana, Zyia (Birthday Girl!!), Ka Ka

I Love YOU!!!
I Miss You!

I want to be with You, spending quality time, as we did on our regular journey through life, although the Love You showed me, and the Love I showed You was extra ordinary.  That it could be taken away so quickly is a lesson in life.  Never take anything or anyone You Love for granted.

I was also thinking, while at work today that be careful what You do.  One mistake could cost You.  Tremendously.  That You may be judged by Your actions or Your behavior no matter Your own justification.  You have to really be careful in this world, and always think once, twice, three times before You act.  Seriously.  Think before You act, and take pride in everything You do.  Be the same person alone when no one is watching, that You are when You know Your actions are being observed by one or many people.  Be consistent.  Be good.  Be true to Yourself.

I Love You

Zyia, I have the most amazing present for You! 

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia Birthday Girl
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy

On my way to work

Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Kwaku
Good afternoon Na'Zyia (Birthday Girl!!!)
Good afternoon Ife

I hope that You are having a joyous day, that brings smiles and laughter into Your lives.  I have You in my heart, on my mind, and want You to know that You inspire me to be a great human being.  I Love You so much, and will be thinking of You every second while I am at work.

I Miss You and I Love You so.

I Love You
I Miss You

Love,

Daddy

Good morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good morning Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife

I wish for You the best day!  I put my positive forth, in hopes that You feel my Love and know that You are always on my mind. 

I Love You with all my heart, and have always felt this way.  From the day each one of You were born, I have Loved You the same as I do now.  This is why it hurts so much not to be with You.

I Love YOU!

Love,

Daddy

My Soul Speaking

I, the father of Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife; I ask The Most High to forgive me for my mistakes 10 times a day. 

Everyday

Good Night Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I wanted to wish You a beautiful nights rest.  All I feel.. I embody Love.  I just Love You.
I Miss You.

I realize everything has changed.  This is my fault.  I strive everyday to be a good man.  A better man.

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

Getting ready for work

Hello Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I'm just getting prepared for a long work day.  This week, I work 10 hours per day, but I am enthusiastic about earning a more substantial pay check so that I can send more money to You. 

My Love is Pure..
and this hurts.

And I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

.. so much

Love,

Daddy

Good Morning Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife

I hope You have a wonderful day, Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife.

I Love You with all my heart.
I Miss You so much.
Na'Zyia!  Your birthday is right around the corner.  I hope You are excited!!

Love,

Daddy

Good Night Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good Night Oshone Osai
Good Night Amari Mos
Good Night Kijana
Good Night Zyia-Babe
Good Night Ka Ka

I Love You.  I wish to tell You a bedtime story, tonight...

"...You see this fish.  It's a snapper.  Fisherman use trap, and catch him.  Sometime rough rough weather come; and take away the trap, with the fish in it.  And this fish, will live in this trap.  And the trap, will catch other fish.  And feed him.  Until him grow BIG!  And the trap get weak.  And then him just break out.  Well it's just so, you must know".

I Love You

Daddy

Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife - You are always on my mind!

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I Love You so much..

Love,

Daddy

Na'Zyia!! Your Birthday is Coming!!!

Good morning, Na'Zyia Skye.

I Love You and am so excited for Your Birthday!  I am doing something so wonderful for You, it warms my heart.

I pray You have the best birthday ever!!

I Miss You Na'Zyia.

I Love You Na'Zyia.

Daddy

About Me

Hello,

I asked a group of friends, while they were in my basement a deep question.  Once I truly opened my eyes, and awakened, I have been struck by various issues I debate within myself.  One of these, I opened to my brothers and sisters downstairs.  It was in the middle of working on a song, entitled "Slow Down".

The question was; "What makes a person good?  What makes a person bad?"

The reason I asked is based on my own personal introspection.  I am hated by one, who I am certain has influenced others to hate me.  I am Loved by those that are in my life.  It is so many people that express how good a man I am, that I began to ask the question, how does perception play into people judging 'one' as good or bad? 

I thought, and know that I have done bad things in my life.  These are things that will make another person hate, and also consider the person who has done wrong a bad person.  This, I overstand.

I can never take back the wrong I have done, however, I can learn.  I can become a man of high moral character.  Only if I accept and own my wrongs.  To look at myself as perfect, would be to dishonor myself.  It would be to dishonor the Most High.  It would be to dishonor those people, and one in particular, I have done wrong to.  This is why I refuse to forgive myself. 

This is why, I refuse to forgive myself. 

A bad person, in my view, would not carry the weight of their wrongs on their shoulder.  I walk in sorrow, and in shame.  I fall to my knees consistently, expressing all my wrongs and saying..

"I AM SORRY"

Good morning Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife

Good morning Oshone
Good morning Amari
Good morning Kwaku
Good morning Na'Zyia
Good morning Ife

This morning, I wish to say that there is only Love.  Love from Your father towards each of You.  It hurts not being with You.  Yesterday, I stopped at Walmart and bought 5 gifts for all of You.  It is not because I know I will be able to give them to You.  It is because I Love You. 

And, I Miss You. 

Love,

Daddy

Good evening Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife

Hello Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love You.  I want You to know this!  That I Love You with all my heart, and all the progress that I am making in life is influenced and motivated by You.  That the money I earn is going to You.  That I do not want anything in this world, more than I want You in my life.  I Love You so much, it hurts.

But I still go on, in order to keep my dream alive.  Of one day, reuniting with You.  All that I do is rooted in Love.  I show no hate, nor speak poorly of anyone.  No negativity, whatsoever exists in my life.  All I am is Love.

I Miss You Oshone
I Miss You Amari
I Miss You Kwaku
I Miss You Na'Zyia
I Miss You Ife

Oh.. do I ever Miss You!

I Love You,

Love

Daddy

Good morning Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife

Good morning Oshone.
Good morning Amari.
Good morning Kwaku.
Good morning Ife.
Good morning Birthday Girl Na'Zyia.

I am thinking of You and missing You deeply.  Na'Zyia, I sent $300.00 dollars for Your birthday, as I have done for Amari this month as well.  Last month, the same for Ife.  I just want You to have the best birthday ever, and it is my Love for You that motivates me to do what I do.  It will get better.  I promise. 

I really Love and Miss You, ever so much.  It hurts so much to write about.  But please know that I Love You.

Love,

Daddy

Could our world/society do a Startrek lifestyle - live on a ship exploring our galaxy, raise our children etc... our biological waste creates continous fuel, clone resources or scientifically create them, grow food, means etc. and always report back to Earthof discoveries.. PROS/CONS. Why wouldn't we?

This is such a deep question.

I have confidence that we are going to have to live on spaceships exploring our galaxy because our sun is running the course of its 10 billion year life cycle, and is mid way through.  The day will come when our sun exhausts its fuel supply and burns out, and we will be forced to find another star with a planet that is habitable for life (human life).  In the process of finding such stars, and planets, we will have to live on ships while navigating this journey.  Therefore, we will be raising generations of children on ships because stars are many light years apart.  It will take time to find them, in other words.   Our biological waste is a possible fuel source because as it stands, we use oils from fossils as gas to power a large portion of machinery here on Earth.  Theoretically, it makes it reasonable that human waste could power machinery of the future.  Scientifically, we are already cloning life and food so cloning resources of all varieties is also highly likely.  We would not have to report back to Earth because our home planet will be gone by this time.  The good thing is that we'll be able to sustain our species for millennia, and increase our knowledge and awareness with respect to all that exists in this vast cosmos.  The bad thing is that we'll no longer have access to our native planet.  If I were alive during this time, I surely would miss Mother Earth. 

We would not do this, that I mentioned above because we are a very volatile species, and may end up blowing ourselves up before we get a chance to explore the grand cosmos.  I have faith that we will get things together, and realize peace is the only character trait that humans need in order to sustain ourselves.

I am for the humility of humanity, and the humble approach is one which I aspire to personify, before I settle off this mortal coil. 

I Love You, Forever.

Good morning Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife

I wish for You to have the most beautiful day.  It is warm outside today, and I hope that You get to enjoy the wonderful weather.  I would be playing all sorts of sports, and activities with You on a day like today.  We would be laughing and smiling for a thousand years!  I want to do so much for and with You.

I Miss You.
I Love You Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife

Love,

Daddy

Good Night Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife I Miss You so much.

I have just arrived home from work, and I am writing to say that You are in my heart.  You are always on my mind, and this pain is worst than any pain I have ever experienced in my life.  It hurts to be without You.  That is why I say I cannot breathe.  The sky always seems grey, and I have to force myself to smile.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I am forever sorry.

Love,

Daddy

Hello Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife

Hello Kwaku
Hello Ife
Hello Amari
Hello Oshone
Hello Birthday Girl - Na'Zyia

I am on my way to work now, but wanted to say that I Love YOU!   I Miss You!

I will send money for Your birthday, Na'Zyia tomorrow afternoon before work.  I have sent child support earlier this month, and will send more at the end of the month, but wanted to send birthday money for You additionally.

I Miss You.
Everything I do, is for You!  I am growing financially, and am putting everything towards Your futures.  I was told by a friend at work, that I am the most unselfish person he has ever met.  He know nothing of the money I send, but how I make people feel.  He actually said "Kwame, you have made me a better man.  You have made me a better husband for my wife, and made me get along with people better at work".

This hurt, because all I want is to be better for You, Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife.  I wish I was the man I am today, when You were all in my life.  All of You.  I owe You forever.

And, I am forever sorry.

Daddy

Good morning Kwaku. Good morning Amari. Good morning Ife. Good morning Oshone. Good morning Birthday Girl Na'Zyia (coming July 31st/2016)

Good morning Children,

I Love You.  I am planning Your special day, Na'Zyia.  I will celebrate this day, alone.  I will pray, on my hands and knees.  I will pray that You are Loved and cherished.  That You are happy and have beautiful comfort within Your Heart.

I Love You Oshone.
I Love You Amari.
I Love You Kwaku.
I Love You Ife.
I Love You Na'Zyia Babe.

I Miss You All so very much.

I am sorry.

Daddy

Good Night Na'Zyia the Birthday Girl, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Ife

Hello Na'Zyia, Ife, Amari, Kwaku, Oshone

I Love You.  I pray that You rest well tonight.  I Miss You and I Love You so much.  I have just arrived home from work, and am missing You very much.

I will write again, expressing my Love for You tomorrow.

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

I am always thinking of You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good afternoon, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

I Love You.  I am getting ready for work, but wanted to say that I truly Love You and I am doing everything I can to show this.  I am fighting for You, and want You to know that in my heart, there is a void.  That void can only be filled by Your presence, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife in my life.  I wish for You to be happy and joyous.  I wish for Love in Your lives.  I wish for You to have Joy every single day.

If I were in Your lives, I would have You in dance classes and competitions, music lessons, martial arts, arts in general, gymnastics, soccer, football, basketball, tennis, golf and all the recreation activities You desire.  I would bring You to movies, information sessions, the zoo, and these are just the things that come to my mind presently.  I want to do so much for You, and I am capable of doing these things now.  These are not just words.  I put my words to actions. 

Sadly, I am restricted from being involved in Your life and it is my fault.  I should have been a better man from day one. 

This is all my fault.

I am forever sorry.

Yet, I Love You from the depths of my core.  I really, Love You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

Love,

Daddy

I am so sorry

I Love You Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife

Hello Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I have just arrived home from work.  Some of the guys from work wanted me to stop by another friends house.  I never go out, and at first I shook my head "no".  But then I decided to go for a bit. 

Soon as I arrived home, I fell to my knees and said a prayer. 

"Good Night Oshone.
I Love You.
I Miss You.
I hope You had a great day!

Good Night Amari.
I Love You.
I Miss You.
I hope You had a great day!

Good Night Kwaku.
I Love You.
I Miss You.
I hope You had a great day!

Good Night Na'Zyia.
I Love You.
I Miss You.
I hope You had a great day!

Good Night Ife.
I Love You.
I Miss You.
I hope You had a great day!"

I really really Miss You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

And I really do.

I Love YOU with everything I am.

Love,

Daddy

Why is it that the clouds don't freeze? Why isn't there a frozen layer in the sky?

Condensations is the process by which clouds form.  I recall from school that warm air rises, and that the tiny droplets are what clouds are comprised of.  When these small water particles become too heavy, they fall as precipitation, or rain.  When they cool, they form snow flakes.  I put forth, the idea of gravity preventing clouds from remaining at the height they are, and instead, you could consider that the cloud falls to Earth, in segments when the temperature cools towards freezing.  Gravity is Queen of the Skye!

Always Love in my heart for You, and I am forever sorry.

Ife Na'Zyia Oshone Amari Kwaku

Good morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I dreamt of You last night. 
This is very difficult for Your daddy.

Being without You, is my punishment.
This is all my fault.

I Love You
I Miss You

Love,

Daddy

All the planets are spinning and rotating; where are we all headed?

For this question, I spoke in the boardroom at work last year of.  It is amazing that after all these years, the cycle repeats.  Little did I know that the ONE I Love asked me this 8 years ago in December.  I was so blind.

We are all headed, including the farthest Galaxies towards 'The Great Attractor".  It is a very complex issue, and I look forward to sharing my knowledge detail for detail in person in the most Loving way..

one day..
some day...

I Love You

Good afternoon Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife

I Love You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Miss You.

I am on my way to work, but could not leave without at least writing that You beautiful Five Children, are always on my mind and in my heart.  In my soul, is energy that releases itself towards You.  I pray that You feel this energy so that YOU may know that I always Love You.  That I have always Loved YOU and that I Miss You so much.

Amari, I hope You had a nice birthday.  I celebrated by myself for You.  I took video's to show You one day (I pray) that I have never left You, nor would I ever leave You.

Na'Zyia, Your birthday is coming and I am very excited for You.  I have something special planned for You and I will send money in hopes that You receive my expression of how much I care about You.

I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Oshone
I Love You Ife
I Love You Amari
Birthday Girl!!  July 31st is coming, and I Love You.  I Love You Na'Zyia

Love,

Daddy

On Borrowed Time..

Hello Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I just wanted to say that I Miss You..

4:29 am - Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife

This hurts so much..
being without You

What is causing the Earth to keep spinning? When will the spinning stop?

At the birth of the solar system, approximately 4.5 billion years ago, Earth accreted material from interstellar space.  Debris from Comets, Asteroids and celestial bodies collided with Earth, and again, Earths gravity pulled this material inwards.  If you think about it; objects at a distance when caught in Earths gravitational pull will hurl towards the Earth and circle the Earth until it collides with it.  This repeated motion of the early Earths substances were all in motion, spinning and colliding.  This is what set the Earth off, in it's current 'spin'.  However, the life cycle of our Sun is 10 billion years.  At this point, the Sun will go through a series of phases until ultimately, it becomes a cold white dwarf.  If the Earth is not consumed and vaporized during the Red Giant phase, it will no longer be within the hold of our Star.  The Sun lose it's mass and send the planets off into space.  I postulate that the Earths spin will change dramatically, and potentially stop. 

I Love You

Amari - Track and Field

Hi Amari,

I told You that I would post a photo of You performing on track and field day.  I watched as You excelled and made me the proudest father in the world.  I also took some photo's of Yourself on this day.  Here is one.

I Love You

Goodnight Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife

Hello Children,

Well, I have You on my mind, as I always do.  I just wanted to take a moment to say that I pray for Your well being, Your health, Your happiness, joy, and for You to be as happy as You possibly can.  I Love You So Much! 
I Miss You So Much..

I fell to my knees at work, and said a prayer in the parking lot on my final break.  I asked God to forgive me for my sins.  I ask God to forgive me 10 times every day.  I asked God to guide over and protect You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife. 

Amari, I pray You have had an outstanding day, and that You smiled continuously.  You are a shining star!  And, I Love and Miss You.

Amari, Happy Birthday and I wish You joy, everlasting.  Love, everlasting.

Daddy Loves You

Love,

Daddy

AMARI - Your Special Day!!

Hello Amari,

I have so many photo's and video's of when we were together.  I am sharing just a few of the photo's that I have recently built the courage to look through.  In the past, it hurt far too much to look at them, but I am growing stronger each day.  It is astonishing just how many memories I have gathered by looking at our times together.  It is so sad that this was taken away, but as I say, always take the good out of experience in life.  Look for the positive, and be inspired to do great things in life.

This was one of the last times I was able to see You, and Your Brother and sisters. 

Always look towards the positive in life, Amari.

Continuously.

Love,

Daddy

It Is Your Day, Amari!! Happy Birthday to a Special Young Man!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AMARI!!  THESE ARE YOUR GIFTS (Friday, July 15th/2016)

I LOVE YOU!!

Happy Birthday Amari - July 15th / 2016

Happy Birthday, Amari! (12:13am) July 15th/2016

I Love You so much, Amari!!! 
I reflect on the day You were born, as I sit in this chair writing You this letter.  I was filled with such joy.  You, while in Your mothers tummy, were a very big baby.  The delivery was joyous, although You did not come into this world with ease.  Your mother was amazing, as Your gigantic size made for a painful delivery, but the Joy and Excitement of having You born trumped how much it hurt as You came forth.  I will never forget the joy Your mother and I shared as You made Your presence here, on Earth.  We Loved that moment, and Love You more each day.

You are kind.  You are soft spoken, and gentle.  You are friendly and have the most amazing heart.  You are caring and considerate of how others feel.  You have this special gift of unselfishness.  You are a rare human being, and because You Love so highly, You will be Loved more highly in return.

I Miss You and I have several memories, and life lessons to share with You as You continue to grow and become a more wonderful young man today, and moving forward.

Never underestimate my Love for You, Amari.  You are my heart.  I will never forgive myself for allowing You and I to part for so many years.  I will do all that I can to be a better man, father, and person all around. 

I Miss You with all my heart.
I Love You with all my heart.

Until we see each other again, always know that..

I LOVE YOU AMARI

Love,

Daddy

I will post all the pictures of Your birthday presents when I arise this morning (around 6:30 am).

I Love You