Hello Ife
Hi Oshone
Good afternoon, Na'Zyia
Greetings 'Mari
Blessings Kwaku
I have arrived home from work, and wanted You to know that You have been on my mind all day.
I wanted to say that I Love You from the bottom of my heart..
From the bottom of my Heart.
I Love You
Daddy
Thursday 30 June 2016
Wednesday 29 June 2016
Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife
Goodnight, Oshone
Goodnight, Amari
Goodnight, Kwaku
Goodnight, Na'Zyia
Goodnight, Ife
There would not be a night where I would not hug and kiss You before bedtime. I would always be there to tuck You into bed.
I Love You
I Miss You
Daddy
Goodnight, Amari
Goodnight, Kwaku
Goodnight, Na'Zyia
Goodnight, Ife
There would not be a night where I would not hug and kiss You before bedtime. I would always be there to tuck You into bed.
I Love You
I Miss You
Daddy
Congratulations 2016!! Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife
Hello Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.
I wanted to congratulate You on finishing the school year. I am very proud.
I had to stop at the bank to send more money to You. I have all the receipts as I am not sure if You are receiving the money I am sending. This will not stop me from sending money.
I Love You and it is because I Love You that I am doing the best I can. My best today, will pale in comparison to what I am becoming and how much more I will do for You.
I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife
I Miss You
Love,
Daddy
I wanted to congratulate You on finishing the school year. I am very proud.
I had to stop at the bank to send more money to You. I have all the receipts as I am not sure if You are receiving the money I am sending. This will not stop me from sending money.
I Love You and it is because I Love You that I am doing the best I can. My best today, will pale in comparison to what I am becoming and how much more I will do for You.
I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife
I Miss You
Love,
Daddy
Congratulations 2016!! Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife
Hello Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.
I wanted to congratulate You on finishing the school year. I am very proud.
I had to stop at the bank to send more money to You. I have all the receipts as I am not sure if You are receiving the money I am sending. This will not stop me from sending money.
I Love You and it is because I Love You that I am doing the best I can. My best today, will pale in comparison to what I am becoming and how much more I will do for You.
I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife
I Miss You
Love,
Daddy
I wanted to congratulate You on finishing the school year. I am very proud.
I had to stop at the bank to send more money to You. I have all the receipts as I am not sure if You are receiving the money I am sending. This will not stop me from sending money.
I Love You and it is because I Love You that I am doing the best I can. My best today, will pale in comparison to what I am becoming and how much more I will do for You.
I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife
I Miss You
Love,
Daddy
Congratulations 2016!! Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife
Hello Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.
I wanted to congratulate You on finishing the school year. I am very proud.
I had to stop at the bank to send more money to You. I have all the receipts as I am not sure if You are receiving the money I am sending. This will not stop me from sending money.
I Love You and it is because I Love You that I am doing the best I can. My best today, will pale in comparison to what I am becoming and how much more I will do for You.
I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife
I Miss You
Love,
Daddy
I wanted to congratulate You on finishing the school year. I am very proud.
I had to stop at the bank to send more money to You. I have all the receipts as I am not sure if You are receiving the money I am sending. This will not stop me from sending money.
I Love You and it is because I Love You that I am doing the best I can. My best today, will pale in comparison to what I am becoming and how much more I will do for You.
I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife
I Miss You
Love,
Daddy
Congratulations 2016!! Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife
Hello Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.
I wanted to congratulate You on finishing the school year. I am very proud.
I had to stop at the bank to send more money to You. I have all the receipts as I am not sure if You are receiving the money I am sending. This will not stop me from sending money.
I Love You and it is because I Love You that I am doing the best I can. My best today, will pale in comparison to what I am becoming and how much more I will do for You.
I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife
I Miss You
Love,
Daddy
I wanted to congratulate You on finishing the school year. I am very proud.
I had to stop at the bank to send more money to You. I have all the receipts as I am not sure if You are receiving the money I am sending. This will not stop me from sending money.
I Love You and it is because I Love You that I am doing the best I can. My best today, will pale in comparison to what I am becoming and how much more I will do for You.
I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife
I Miss You
Love,
Daddy
A Very Special Expression of Love
Hello Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife
I am leaving for work now, but wanted to say that I Love You so much. That I wish You a beautiful last day of school for the year, and to let You know that You are all in my thoughts very deeply.
I Love You
I Miss You
Love,
Daddy
I am leaving for work now, but wanted to say that I Love You so much. That I wish You a beautiful last day of school for the year, and to let You know that You are all in my thoughts very deeply.
I Love You
I Miss You
Love,
Daddy
Tuesday 28 June 2016
Proud, I am not
Hello children,
This message is a sliver of my inner reflections. This comes at a time when finally, I am able to share from the depths of my being, some of my growth. This is who I have become, as a human being. This is a part of my growth.
Hmm.. where shall I begin.
I stare at this computer screen, in silence, hoping my spirit will allow for the manifestation of my inner being. Largely, I embody the changes that I have experienced in the absence of human interaction, so that no one can know who I truly am. They gain their perception of me as I encounter them in my day to day experience. But no one ever has access to my deepest thoughts, feelings, but maybe see my behavior through my actions. My actions are loud, despite the fact that they come without words. Here are some words that have lead to this act of messaging You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife. Your father is a person who gives, with no intention of receiving. I truly consider the life and lives of others, before my own. I have given myself up, for a higher calling. A more significant meaning. Everything I do, is for others. Not for myself. I have bought a new car, and fashioned a new house, not for me. Not for strangers to be enamored with. I did so because I believed that this is what it would take to make the only Lady I will ever Love see that I have changed, therefore, accept my doings. This is the truth. In court, I was not given an opportunity to say that the things I own, are not for me! I bought these things for the most incredible Lady on this Earth. I would walk always from all that I presently have, if She would take them. Take everything, because... (and this is the part I will need You to pay careful attention to), I am not the best thing that happened to You. I doesn't exist, anymore. What I give, does. I'm going to say it again. What - I - Give - Does exist. Love exists, whether I am alive or not. Just because I want to give "MY" Love, does not mean it is in the best interest of Her - 'This Special Lady'. How selfish can one be, to believe that they deserve to be Loved. I am referencing myself, here. What matters most in life, is Your happiness. Happiness exists, whether I am alive or not. Happiness does not have to be on account of me. My evolution has taught me, that Love is sufficient unto Love. Let Life be. Let Love be. I am focused on being a good person. I have lost the right to give my Love to a Lady, and this should not hurt me. It is deserving. Let her be Loved by one deserving. This should make me happy. This is the definition and recognition of Love. Total and complete unselfishness. Let all be Loved.
My thoughts go deeper still. It is very hard to type the words. The understanding that should be gathered from me, is to never get in the way Love. Do not stand in the way of Love. But to let Love find its way.
TO LET LOVE.. Love.
Love,
Daddy
This message is a sliver of my inner reflections. This comes at a time when finally, I am able to share from the depths of my being, some of my growth. This is who I have become, as a human being. This is a part of my growth.
Hmm.. where shall I begin.
I stare at this computer screen, in silence, hoping my spirit will allow for the manifestation of my inner being. Largely, I embody the changes that I have experienced in the absence of human interaction, so that no one can know who I truly am. They gain their perception of me as I encounter them in my day to day experience. But no one ever has access to my deepest thoughts, feelings, but maybe see my behavior through my actions. My actions are loud, despite the fact that they come without words. Here are some words that have lead to this act of messaging You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife. Your father is a person who gives, with no intention of receiving. I truly consider the life and lives of others, before my own. I have given myself up, for a higher calling. A more significant meaning. Everything I do, is for others. Not for myself. I have bought a new car, and fashioned a new house, not for me. Not for strangers to be enamored with. I did so because I believed that this is what it would take to make the only Lady I will ever Love see that I have changed, therefore, accept my doings. This is the truth. In court, I was not given an opportunity to say that the things I own, are not for me! I bought these things for the most incredible Lady on this Earth. I would walk always from all that I presently have, if She would take them. Take everything, because... (and this is the part I will need You to pay careful attention to), I am not the best thing that happened to You. I doesn't exist, anymore. What I give, does. I'm going to say it again. What - I - Give - Does exist. Love exists, whether I am alive or not. Just because I want to give "MY" Love, does not mean it is in the best interest of Her - 'This Special Lady'. How selfish can one be, to believe that they deserve to be Loved. I am referencing myself, here. What matters most in life, is Your happiness. Happiness exists, whether I am alive or not. Happiness does not have to be on account of me. My evolution has taught me, that Love is sufficient unto Love. Let Life be. Let Love be. I am focused on being a good person. I have lost the right to give my Love to a Lady, and this should not hurt me. It is deserving. Let her be Loved by one deserving. This should make me happy. This is the definition and recognition of Love. Total and complete unselfishness. Let all be Loved.
My thoughts go deeper still. It is very hard to type the words. The understanding that should be gathered from me, is to never get in the way Love. Do not stand in the way of Love. But to let Love find its way.
TO LET LOVE.. Love.
Love,
Daddy
Monday 27 June 2016
"Fight For ME"
Revelations that come to me, everyday strike my heart with a force that tears my eyes. Continuously. The fact that a lady said "Fight For ME", although I was not worth the ground she walked and walks. All the wrongs of my life, that cause me to literally hate myself are too numerous to count. When I feel as though I've arrived at the final wrong, another comes smashing the door. I thought of 14 more wrongs, and silently, under my breath, in my car, said I am sorry...
How could I be so blind, during the most important time of my life? This question will haunt me until the day I die. What is more disturbing, is life's twisted irony. That I now am in a financially secure position, and am growing. To be specific, I am now above middle income and own more than I have ever owned in my life, but cannot show and physically give to the most important Angels in the Universe (again, although I do pay child support twice a month). That I have interviews for higher positions, which will double my income, and have arrived at this place far too late, causes me dismay beyond belief. I cannot shake my head hard enough, and feel disdain for myself. Not sympathy, but utter disgust for myself. Why was I such a fool!!
To review more honesty; I have paid a 'lawyer' now $9000.00 in child support, and have sent birthday money (not including the thousands paid in court and lawyer fee's), which I am increasing as my income increases. Going on 1 year living in a home, that is furnished all the way, from the bedrooms and bathrooms, to the basement. Alone! Living alone! Own my car (BMW SUV) and the things I have invested in are actually improving my financial standing. So much I wish to say. Speaking of alone; a truth that may be difficult to believe, but I do not lie so here it is. I have not been in a ****** relationship nor have I been ******** with anyone since I left. I have done so much wrong, in terms of flirting, and leading on.. but I have never crossed that line. This does not make me a good man, as I have belittled myself for all my wrongs, but it is a truth none the less. I thought on this deeply and realized just because I am not ******** with anyone, does not give me grounds to be forgiven for all my sins. My sins, if I could reverse them, would make me a good man. Now, I set out to undo all my wrongs. To find a way to become a good man. To apologize forever and a day, to the One I Love. To make Her realize that I would worship the ground She walks every second of every day. That to Love Her better as the sun arises each morning, is one of my motivations to live. To Love Her better each day. The depth of this sentence...
I will not be given this chance, because I do not deserve it. The audacity of myself, to ask the Universe to grant me this ONE chance!
All I am is a man who has recognized his wrongs.
All I am is a man who has much to be punished for.
I am this man, who wants to give Love..
Just arrived home from work, and now I shower. Then, downstairs to record music for Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.
Then; I will pray.
Daddy
How could I be so blind, during the most important time of my life? This question will haunt me until the day I die. What is more disturbing, is life's twisted irony. That I now am in a financially secure position, and am growing. To be specific, I am now above middle income and own more than I have ever owned in my life, but cannot show and physically give to the most important Angels in the Universe (again, although I do pay child support twice a month). That I have interviews for higher positions, which will double my income, and have arrived at this place far too late, causes me dismay beyond belief. I cannot shake my head hard enough, and feel disdain for myself. Not sympathy, but utter disgust for myself. Why was I such a fool!!
To review more honesty; I have paid a 'lawyer' now $9000.00 in child support, and have sent birthday money (not including the thousands paid in court and lawyer fee's), which I am increasing as my income increases. Going on 1 year living in a home, that is furnished all the way, from the bedrooms and bathrooms, to the basement. Alone! Living alone! Own my car (BMW SUV) and the things I have invested in are actually improving my financial standing. So much I wish to say. Speaking of alone; a truth that may be difficult to believe, but I do not lie so here it is. I have not been in a ****** relationship nor have I been ******** with anyone since I left. I have done so much wrong, in terms of flirting, and leading on.. but I have never crossed that line. This does not make me a good man, as I have belittled myself for all my wrongs, but it is a truth none the less. I thought on this deeply and realized just because I am not ******** with anyone, does not give me grounds to be forgiven for all my sins. My sins, if I could reverse them, would make me a good man. Now, I set out to undo all my wrongs. To find a way to become a good man. To apologize forever and a day, to the One I Love. To make Her realize that I would worship the ground She walks every second of every day. That to Love Her better as the sun arises each morning, is one of my motivations to live. To Love Her better each day. The depth of this sentence...
I will not be given this chance, because I do not deserve it. The audacity of myself, to ask the Universe to grant me this ONE chance!
All I am is a man who has recognized his wrongs.
All I am is a man who has much to be punished for.
I am this man, who wants to give Love..
Just arrived home from work, and now I shower. Then, downstairs to record music for Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.
Then; I will pray.
Daddy
Sunday 26 June 2016
Goodnight Babies
Goodnight, Oshone
Goodnight, Amari
Goodnight, Kwaku
Goodnight, Na'Zyia
Night Night, Ife Lia' Jasiri
Daddy Loves You
Goodnight, Amari
Goodnight, Kwaku
Goodnight, Na'Zyia
Night Night, Ife Lia' Jasiri
Daddy Loves You
Babies I Apologize
Goodnight, Oshone
Goodnight, Amari
Goodnight, Kwaku
Goodnight, Na'Zyia
Goodnight, Ife
I hope that You are all warm, comfortable, and enthusiastic for a new day. I hope that You are all experiencing the sweetest of dreams. This, I mean.
I have finished recording "Babies, I Apologize". It is a beautiful song for You. I actually 'sung' the entire track. I layed four minutes of vocals tonight. I will work on another for You this coming week. Daddy works very hard, and despite the fact that this week i'm walking into a tougher than usual schedule, I am undaunted by the limitations of the amount of time in the day. I will get this done. I will get in from work, shower, and head to the basement to record more songs for You.
I Love You and..
"Oshone, I apologize. Oyo, I Need You!
Ife, I apologize. Ja-Si, I Need You!
Zyia, I apologize. Zyia Babe, I Need You!
Mosi, I apologize. Mari, I Need You!
'Jana, I apologize. Kwaku, I Need You!"
Daddy Loves You!
Goodnight, Amari
Goodnight, Kwaku
Goodnight, Na'Zyia
Goodnight, Ife
I hope that You are all warm, comfortable, and enthusiastic for a new day. I hope that You are all experiencing the sweetest of dreams. This, I mean.
I have finished recording "Babies, I Apologize". It is a beautiful song for You. I actually 'sung' the entire track. I layed four minutes of vocals tonight. I will work on another for You this coming week. Daddy works very hard, and despite the fact that this week i'm walking into a tougher than usual schedule, I am undaunted by the limitations of the amount of time in the day. I will get this done. I will get in from work, shower, and head to the basement to record more songs for You.
I Love You and..
"Oshone, I apologize. Oyo, I Need You!
Ife, I apologize. Ja-Si, I Need You!
Zyia, I apologize. Zyia Babe, I Need You!
Mosi, I apologize. Mari, I Need You!
'Jana, I apologize. Kwaku, I Need You!"
Daddy Loves You!
A Song For You
Hello Ife Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia
I work for a living, to provide a wonderful future for You. Whether I am in Your life or not, I am dedicated to making as much money as possible. This is my life. This is the life. I feel good about going about making a good impression on all around me, as they witness my work ethic. I also do not lie, cheat, steal or do anything negative. In fact, for four years, I have only spread positive energy to all. I never say one bad word about anyone, and do not engage in gossip. I am clean.
I wanted to say that I've also been working on songs for You. I made an instrumental a little while ago, and from the moment it was created, I could hear the words that would accompany the music.
The chorus says;
*****, I apologize.
Babies; I Love You.
*****, I apologize.
*****, I Love You.
Kwaku, I apologize.
Children, I Love You.
Most High, I apologize.
*****, I Love You.
I'll start recording this tonight..
I have an early day tomorrow, as I have to leave for work at 6:30 am.
Know that, it is far deeper than words could ever express..
Love,
Daddy
I work for a living, to provide a wonderful future for You. Whether I am in Your life or not, I am dedicated to making as much money as possible. This is my life. This is the life. I feel good about going about making a good impression on all around me, as they witness my work ethic. I also do not lie, cheat, steal or do anything negative. In fact, for four years, I have only spread positive energy to all. I never say one bad word about anyone, and do not engage in gossip. I am clean.
I wanted to say that I've also been working on songs for You. I made an instrumental a little while ago, and from the moment it was created, I could hear the words that would accompany the music.
The chorus says;
*****, I apologize.
Babies; I Love You.
*****, I apologize.
*****, I Love You.
Kwaku, I apologize.
Children, I Love You.
Most High, I apologize.
*****, I Love You.
I'll start recording this tonight..
I have an early day tomorrow, as I have to leave for work at 6:30 am.
Know that, it is far deeper than words could ever express..
Love,
Daddy
Saturday 25 June 2016
Why?
Why is it that through adversity, a person who is truly sorry finds all the wrongs of his doings? Why does it take adversity for a genuine person to conclude, that they must do right? That they must be better? What does it take for a person to truly wake up? I conclude, that it takes for them to lose all that they Love.
I desire to continue this path of wakefulness, as I strive to be a better man. To become a great man, thus, a great father is all that matters to me.
"... and he was called God's friend. You see that a person is justified by what he does and not by faith alone."
I Love You Ife, Oshone, Na'Zyia, Amari, Kwaku.
With all of me,
Always.
Heart and Soul
Love,
Daddy
I desire to continue this path of wakefulness, as I strive to be a better man. To become a great man, thus, a great father is all that matters to me.
"... and he was called God's friend. You see that a person is justified by what he does and not by faith alone."
I Love You Ife, Oshone, Na'Zyia, Amari, Kwaku.
With all of me,
Always.
Heart and Soul
Love,
Daddy
Ife Lia'Jasiri
Hello Ife,
I wish for You to be Happy. So happy, and joyous. I hope You had a wonderful birthday.
Daddy Loves You.
Daddy Misses You.
I Love You Ife,
Love,
Daddy
I wish for You to be Happy. So happy, and joyous. I hope You had a wonderful birthday.
Daddy Loves You.
Daddy Misses You.
I Love You Ife,
Love,
Daddy
Friday 24 June 2016
You mean everything to me, Ife!!
I absolutely Love You Ife, with all of me!!
Love,
Daddy
Ife, You are a Princess!!
I Love You, Ife..
This is the hardest experience of my entire life..
Ife Lia'Jasiri
I Love You Ife,
I am sorry I am not able to be there with You, and for You to show You so much Love. Please know that your daddy Loves You with all my heart.
I Love You
I have just returned from a few stores, picking You up birthday presents. Tomorrow, I would Love to give them to You, however, under the circumstances, I cannot. Therefore, I will take these photos and post them. I will also post photos of me, so that You one day may see that I am foreal, and that I would do anything to be with You again.
Please trust and know that everything I do, is for You.
I Love You
Love,
Daddy
I am sorry I am not able to be there with You, and for You to show You so much Love. Please know that your daddy Loves You with all my heart.
I Love You
I have just returned from a few stores, picking You up birthday presents. Tomorrow, I would Love to give them to You, however, under the circumstances, I cannot. Therefore, I will take these photos and post them. I will also post photos of me, so that You one day may see that I am foreal, and that I would do anything to be with You again.
Please trust and know that everything I do, is for You.
I Love You
Love,
Daddy
Thursday 23 June 2016
Oshone 'Mari Kijana Zyia-Babe Ka Ka
Hi Oshone
Hi Amari
Hi Kwaku
Hi Na'Zyia
Hi Ife
I have just come home from work, and of course, have nothing but YOU on my mind. While at work, I spoke about You to Auntie Naye (I did not know she was moving into Your building with her fiancé). I spoke of my everlasting Love for You. I am sorry. I am always sorry for not being the best father for You. I am doing all that I know how to be a great father for only You. I Miss You so much.
I wanted You to know that I may be cutting my hair, as my company is again considering a major promotion for Your father. This would mean, I take on a management position. The lesson to be learned is that when You are consistent, and work extremely hard, it is impossible for Your efforts to be subdued. People notice when You give Your all to whatever endeavor You may partake. For me, it is to make as much money as possible, so that Your lives will be far superior to mine. That is all that matters to me. I wish that I had seen this sooner. I am sorry.
Ife; Your special day is 24 hours and 30 minutes away. I am excited for You, and sad that I will not be able to give You Your gifts. As I have said; I will post what I am going to do, knowing that You have no idea how much I Love You. How much I miss You.
I am sorry...
This hurts so much..
I will continue to Love You from afar.
I Love You
Daddy
Hi Amari
Hi Kwaku
Hi Na'Zyia
Hi Ife
I have just come home from work, and of course, have nothing but YOU on my mind. While at work, I spoke about You to Auntie Naye (I did not know she was moving into Your building with her fiancé). I spoke of my everlasting Love for You. I am sorry. I am always sorry for not being the best father for You. I am doing all that I know how to be a great father for only You. I Miss You so much.
I wanted You to know that I may be cutting my hair, as my company is again considering a major promotion for Your father. This would mean, I take on a management position. The lesson to be learned is that when You are consistent, and work extremely hard, it is impossible for Your efforts to be subdued. People notice when You give Your all to whatever endeavor You may partake. For me, it is to make as much money as possible, so that Your lives will be far superior to mine. That is all that matters to me. I wish that I had seen this sooner. I am sorry.
Ife; Your special day is 24 hours and 30 minutes away. I am excited for You, and sad that I will not be able to give You Your gifts. As I have said; I will post what I am going to do, knowing that You have no idea how much I Love You. How much I miss You.
I am sorry...
This hurts so much..
I will continue to Love You from afar.
I Love You
Daddy
Wednesday 22 June 2016
Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife
I Love You - Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife
I just arrived home from work, and of course.. all that I can do is think of You.
While at work, I was picturing You smiling, and laughing together with me. We would sing, and dance and have much fun together. Then I would do this dance, after another song. You would all laugh so hard. Oshone, You would try to copy it, and then I began laughing so hard. Anyway, I just wanted to say from the bottom of my heart that I Love You.
"I saw my baby. Crying hard as babe could cry. What could I do. My baby's love had gone. And left my baby blue. Nobody knew. What kind of magic spell to use.."
"Forward and Fiyaka, Manakcle and then Gosaka!!"
I miss You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife
I Miss You so much
I just arrived home from work, and of course.. all that I can do is think of You.
While at work, I was picturing You smiling, and laughing together with me. We would sing, and dance and have much fun together. Then I would do this dance, after another song. You would all laugh so hard. Oshone, You would try to copy it, and then I began laughing so hard. Anyway, I just wanted to say from the bottom of my heart that I Love You.
"I saw my baby. Crying hard as babe could cry. What could I do. My baby's love had gone. And left my baby blue. Nobody knew. What kind of magic spell to use.."
"Forward and Fiyaka, Manakcle and then Gosaka!!"
I miss You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife
I Miss You so much
Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife
Good afternoon Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife
I am getting ready for work, and have been doing nothing other than thinking of You. I Miss You! I am sorry.
I just wanted to say that my heart still breaks, everyday. That I Love You and cannot breathe without You.
I am sorry.
Ife, please have a wonderful birthday (three days from today). I will post the special day I am celebrating in honor of Your Day!
I Love You
Daddy
I am getting ready for work, and have been doing nothing other than thinking of You. I Miss You! I am sorry.
I just wanted to say that my heart still breaks, everyday. That I Love You and cannot breathe without You.
I am sorry.
Ife, please have a wonderful birthday (three days from today). I will post the special day I am celebrating in honor of Your Day!
I Love You
Daddy
Tuesday 21 June 2016
Ife Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Oshone
I Love You, Children more than everything.
I am sorry.
Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Oshone; it is Your sisters birthday in four days!! I have something special planned, and although I am not allowed to see Her, or You; I am going to do a very wonderful thing, that only a father who Loves his daughter would do.
I am here. I am here doing everything for You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia and for the one who has a very special and beautiful day coming..
Ife!!
Your Daddy Loves You
I Love You
I am sorry.
Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Oshone; it is Your sisters birthday in four days!! I have something special planned, and although I am not allowed to see Her, or You; I am going to do a very wonderful thing, that only a father who Loves his daughter would do.
I am here. I am here doing everything for You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia and for the one who has a very special and beautiful day coming..
Ife!!
Your Daddy Loves You
I Love You
Sunday 19 June 2016
Oshone
Oshone,
I have on every birthday, being without You, wished You a happy birthday. When the time comes, I will show proof. I am not doing anything but Loving You from a far, because that is all I am allowed to do. I think of ways, every day of my life, to show You my Love. This is the hardest thing I have experienced in my life...
I have on every birthday, being without You, wished You a happy birthday. When the time comes, I will show proof. I am not doing anything but Loving You from a far, because that is all I am allowed to do. I think of ways, every day of my life, to show You my Love. This is the hardest thing I have experienced in my life...
Ife
Ife, You mean the world to me. What does this mean? It means, I will fight to be re-united with You because I Love You. There are more words that could describe my Love for You, however, I am a father and a man, who let's his actions speak louder than his words. Than my words. Know that, I Love You so much. More than any father could Love their child. Please know...
This is a photo of You and I below..
This is a photo of You and I below..
Amari
Amari, I Love You.
It is hard for the father that I am, to put in words the amount of Love I feel for You. It is never ending, meaning, I think of You with all the time that passes. It hurts, Amari.
Know that, I am a man, who Loves his son more than You will ever know.
I Love You.
Love, Daddy
The photo below is of You and I. Beautiful Ife is in the background. This is Your bed, in Your bedroom and is where I have Your some of Your photo's taken of You and I. There is more...
It is hard for the father that I am, to put in words the amount of Love I feel for You. It is never ending, meaning, I think of You with all the time that passes. It hurts, Amari.
Know that, I am a man, who Loves his son more than You will ever know.
I Love You.
Love, Daddy
The photo below is of You and I. Beautiful Ife is in the background. This is Your bed, in Your bedroom and is where I have Your some of Your photo's taken of You and I. There is more...
Na'Zyia
I Love You, Na'Zyia. You asking me to take care of You, was one of the last moments we shared. I speak about this to everyone in my life. If the day should come, where I am allowed to see You again, I will explain exactly what this precious situation I mentioned above was all about.
I absolutely Love You with more than my heart.
I Love You
Daddy
Below is a photo of my hand holding Your purple beret.
I absolutely Love You with more than my heart.
I Love You
Daddy
Below is a photo of my hand holding Your purple beret.
Kwaku
Hi Kwaku,
I Miss YOU! I apologize for not being the greatest Father in the world for You. But please know, that all that I do is for You. I Miss You so much...
The two photo's below are a one of You and I in 2012. The first one; this was just before I was no longer allowed to see you again. It hurts so bad. I have a bedroom for You with a beautiful bed, and comforter that I know would keep you so beautiful at night. This picture I actually took is of the framed photo on Your bed today. On Your bed are letters you wrote for me, more pictures, and all the things that You made for me while we were together. My Love for You runs so strong, that I hold on to everything You ever gave me. I'm doing my best to keep strong for You.
The second is a K you made for me in class, and as a gift for Fathers day, You ran up to me after school and presented me with.. it hurts, Kwaku.
I Miss YOU! I apologize for not being the greatest Father in the world for You. But please know, that all that I do is for You. I Miss You so much...
The two photo's below are a one of You and I in 2012. The first one; this was just before I was no longer allowed to see you again. It hurts so bad. I have a bedroom for You with a beautiful bed, and comforter that I know would keep you so beautiful at night. This picture I actually took is of the framed photo on Your bed today. On Your bed are letters you wrote for me, more pictures, and all the things that You made for me while we were together. My Love for You runs so strong, that I hold on to everything You ever gave me. I'm doing my best to keep strong for You.
The second is a K you made for me in class, and as a gift for Fathers day, You ran up to me after school and presented me with.. it hurts, Kwaku.
Saturday 18 June 2016
Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife
It is 2:49 am. I am in your home, alone (as always) thinking of You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.
I am sorry. So much that I am sorry for flows through me. I have taken much time to consider all the things I am sorry for. If only You knew..
I Love You
Love,
Daddy
I am sorry. So much that I am sorry for flows through me. I have taken much time to consider all the things I am sorry for. If only You knew..
I Love You
Love,
Daddy
Wednesday 15 June 2016
Oshone - Amari - Kwaku - Na'Zyia - Ife
My heart hurts in a way words cannot describe. My pain is the result of a punishment (being without You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife) given to me. I have said previously, that I am deserving of being punished, however, I will not accept nor believe that I am legally unable to have access towards You. I would never harm You, nor have I ever done You any harm. That is the reason I am suffering such pain. I shake my head in disbelief that this has happened.
And still, I am forever sorry.
I Love You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyi, Ife. Know this. I Love You with all my heart.
And still, I am forever sorry.
I Love You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyi, Ife. Know this. I Love You with all my heart.
Tuesday 14 June 2016
Oshone Osai - Amari Mosiah - Kwaku Oluwasei - Na'Zyia Skye - Ife Lia'Jasiri
For my children;
Please know that YOU are on my mind, every second of every day. That I Love You more than I Love myself. That I Miss You, beyond Your wildest dreams. That I cannot articulate the loss I feel, and the hurt I experience every day without You. That I am forever sorry for not being in Your life. Know that all my efforts, are to this point in vain. That no matter how I try to fight for You, or to show You that You have a Father that is different. That I am a Father that wants to Love, teach, and learn from You until the end of time.
More than all this;
Know that Your Father Loves You
Daddy
Please know that YOU are on my mind, every second of every day. That I Love You more than I Love myself. That I Miss You, beyond Your wildest dreams. That I cannot articulate the loss I feel, and the hurt I experience every day without You. That I am forever sorry for not being in Your life. Know that all my efforts, are to this point in vain. That no matter how I try to fight for You, or to show You that You have a Father that is different. That I am a Father that wants to Love, teach, and learn from You until the end of time.
More than all this;
Know that Your Father Loves You
Daddy
Sunday 12 June 2016
If I were the human being, then; that I am now (For Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife)
I am a man who has evolved into an ever improving individual. I am sad. My heart hurts because I would not have lost my family, had I not been an immature child while married, with five beautiful children. I shake my head in shame. I hold my head down in sorrow..
As I write these words, and as I have prayed...
As I Love You from a far - Oshone - Amari - Kwaku - Na'Zyia - Ife
I submit myself to the Most High, and all of my bestowed punishments.
With my career, I have been able to pay all my bills, including child support, furnish a home that I live in alone, with 4 bedrooms for You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia and Ife. I have attached photo's of drawings You have all given me when You were much younger. I have photo's of Your bedrooms, and I will fight for You until my last breath. Fight only to be reunited with You, and to Love You. To provide and protect You with my Love. I will defend my Love for You. I will continue to give my all to You. I Love You.
Jesus
I will follow
For each step is forgiven and never long
And as we walk
Through miles of disbelief
It will be his hand that guides you
Leading you home
He'll say "you carry on, a new day will come"
I know it will yeah
You carry on
I know, I know a new day will dawn
Yes it will
I am woman (I am man)
A mountain I will climb
Oh yes I will
I've been beat down and I've been broken
And each day I give it another try
Oh yeah
We will carry on
A new day has come
We will carry on
I know a new day will dawn
Oh yeah
I've been broken
Yeah
New day will dawn
We will carry on
Yes we will
A new day will come
Carry on, carry on
New day will dawn
A new day will come
I am woman
A New day will dawn
I Love YOU
Oshone
Amari
Kwaku
Na'Zyia
Ife
I Miss YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As I write these words, and as I have prayed...
As I Love You from a far - Oshone - Amari - Kwaku - Na'Zyia - Ife
I submit myself to the Most High, and all of my bestowed punishments.
With my career, I have been able to pay all my bills, including child support, furnish a home that I live in alone, with 4 bedrooms for You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia and Ife. I have attached photo's of drawings You have all given me when You were much younger. I have photo's of Your bedrooms, and I will fight for You until my last breath. Fight only to be reunited with You, and to Love You. To provide and protect You with my Love. I will defend my Love for You. I will continue to give my all to You. I Love You.
Jesus
I will follow
For each step is forgiven and never long
And as we walk
Through miles of disbelief
It will be his hand that guides you
Leading you home
He'll say "you carry on, a new day will come"
I know it will yeah
You carry on
I know, I know a new day will dawn
Yes it will
I am woman (I am man)
A mountain I will climb
Oh yes I will
I've been beat down and I've been broken
And each day I give it another try
Oh yeah
We will carry on
A new day has come
We will carry on
I know a new day will dawn
Oh yeah
I've been broken
Yeah
New day will dawn
We will carry on
Yes we will
A new day will come
Carry on, carry on
New day will dawn
A new day will come
I am woman
A New day will dawn
Oshone
Amari
Kwaku
Na'Zyia
Ife
I Miss YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday 10 June 2016
Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife
I am wishing you a good morning, afternoon, evening, and night; my Children.
I Miss You with all my heart. I Love You with all that I am. I am so sorry for being absent. Please know that this is not what I want, nor have I ever wanted. I have always wanted to be with You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia and Ife. I am sorry. Everyday of my life, I shake my head and walk in sadness, because I am sorry. This is all my fault.
I wanted You to know that Your bedrooms have come along so nicely, and the house I have for You looks wonderful. I have photo's and videos online. I will show You if ever we are reunited. I have sent thousands of dollars to a Lawyer, who I have contacted via email to confirm her receipt of the money I have sent for You. I will continue sending money every month, and now twice a month for You.
I have just arrived into Your home, from work and wanted You to know that I work hard for You. All that I do is for You. In Your bedrooms, I have special gifts for all of You to show You how much I Love You. How much I have missed You. All I am is a positive man, and a man who is striving to be a better human being every day of my life. I just want to be a good person. I have really looked into myself in order to bring about Love in abundance from every fiber of my being. My words, some might say, are poetic, but it is my actions that I am most proud of. I have become one with my words (a dream come true), yet I still strive to maintain a righteous course, in bringing out the best of me, and therefore, being a great father for You. All I am, I repeat, is for You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.
I just wanted You to know that I LOVE YOU!!!
Your Daddy
I Miss You with all my heart. I Love You with all that I am. I am so sorry for being absent. Please know that this is not what I want, nor have I ever wanted. I have always wanted to be with You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia and Ife. I am sorry. Everyday of my life, I shake my head and walk in sadness, because I am sorry. This is all my fault.
I wanted You to know that Your bedrooms have come along so nicely, and the house I have for You looks wonderful. I have photo's and videos online. I will show You if ever we are reunited. I have sent thousands of dollars to a Lawyer, who I have contacted via email to confirm her receipt of the money I have sent for You. I will continue sending money every month, and now twice a month for You.
I have just arrived into Your home, from work and wanted You to know that I work hard for You. All that I do is for You. In Your bedrooms, I have special gifts for all of You to show You how much I Love You. How much I have missed You. All I am is a positive man, and a man who is striving to be a better human being every day of my life. I just want to be a good person. I have really looked into myself in order to bring about Love in abundance from every fiber of my being. My words, some might say, are poetic, but it is my actions that I am most proud of. I have become one with my words (a dream come true), yet I still strive to maintain a righteous course, in bringing out the best of me, and therefore, being a great father for You. All I am, I repeat, is for You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.
I just wanted You to know that I LOVE YOU!!!
Your Daddy
Thursday 9 June 2016
Ife - Our Daughter
I Love You Ife.
Your birthday is coming soon!! I am so excited for You, and I have bought you the most amazing gift. One day.. some day; I pray You and I can see each other, so that I may give You all the gifts over the years I have saved for You.
I Love You with all my heart.
Daddy
Your birthday is coming soon!! I am so excited for You, and I have bought you the most amazing gift. One day.. some day; I pray You and I can see each other, so that I may give You all the gifts over the years I have saved for You.
I Love You with all my heart.
Daddy
Tuesday 7 June 2016
My Nightmare
Good morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, and Ife.
I have to go to work in 3 hours and 14 minutes, as it is 3:46 am. I start my work day at 7:00 am. I have arisen from another nightmare, where my stomach hurts so bad. It is a dream I have had, continuously, of You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, and Ife being together with me. We were all in it seemed, a classroom. You were showing me drawings, and projects you have completed in school. I was in awe as Your growth and intelligence was on display before me. We were all sharing the excellence of all Your Brilliances. Your Mother was there to. She asked if I had much to do for the rest of the afternoon. I told her that I would cancel work for the day, to spend it with Our family.
This hurts so bad
I do not want to go on.
Love,
Daddy
I have to go to work in 3 hours and 14 minutes, as it is 3:46 am. I start my work day at 7:00 am. I have arisen from another nightmare, where my stomach hurts so bad. It is a dream I have had, continuously, of You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, and Ife being together with me. We were all in it seemed, a classroom. You were showing me drawings, and projects you have completed in school. I was in awe as Your growth and intelligence was on display before me. We were all sharing the excellence of all Your Brilliances. Your Mother was there to. She asked if I had much to do for the rest of the afternoon. I told her that I would cancel work for the day, to spend it with Our family.
This hurts so bad
I do not want to go on.
Love,
Daddy
Sunday 5 June 2016
A Pure Life - Alcohol Free.. I Love You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife
Hello Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.
There was a time where I consumed beer regularly. I used to drink a lot of Heineken beer. I am now, based on the inspiration to be a better man, and a good Father free of all alcohol. I have now, under no assistance from anything outside of my self and inner strength (and Your beautiful influence) over 240 days of drinking only juice and water. I thank You for all that You offer to improve my life.
It is possible to take any negative experience and or situation, and translate it into a positive. Never forget. Always remember.
I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife
Love Daddy
There was a time where I consumed beer regularly. I used to drink a lot of Heineken beer. I am now, based on the inspiration to be a better man, and a good Father free of all alcohol. I have now, under no assistance from anything outside of my self and inner strength (and Your beautiful influence) over 240 days of drinking only juice and water. I thank You for all that You offer to improve my life.
It is possible to take any negative experience and or situation, and translate it into a positive. Never forget. Always remember.
I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife
Love Daddy
Saturday 4 June 2016
For Our Children - Ife, Na'Zyia, Kwaku, Amari, Oshone
I am sorry I am not with You. It is my fault.
And, I am forever sorry.
Daddy
And, I am forever sorry.
Daddy
Friday 3 June 2016
Thursday 2 June 2016
Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia and Ife
Hello great children,
I want to express a Love for YOU like no other. A Love that can be felt across generations. So much so, that Your (future) children, and Your childrens, children will know of my Love for You. My goal in this life is to ensure that You are always Loved. That You know that You have a Father that would die for You.
.. and that I Love You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'zyia and Ife with all of my Heart.
I Love You
Daddy
I want to express a Love for YOU like no other. A Love that can be felt across generations. So much so, that Your (future) children, and Your childrens, children will know of my Love for You. My goal in this life is to ensure that You are always Loved. That You know that You have a Father that would die for You.
.. and that I Love You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'zyia and Ife with all of my Heart.
I Love You
Daddy
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