11:28 pm - Monday, October 31st/2016

Oshone
Amari
Kwaku
Na'Zyia
Ife

You are on my mind.  I want to give You the world..

You are always on my mind.

You have always been on my mind.

I Love You so very Much!

Love,

Daddy

9:04 pm - Monday, October 31st/2016

Good night Oshone Osai
Good night Amari Mos
Good night Kwaku Kijana
Good night Na'Zyia Skye
Good night Ife Lia Ja'Siri

I Love You

I Miss You

Sleep tight

Love,

Daddy

4:42 pm - Monday, October 31st/2016

Happy Halloween Oshone
Happy Halloween Amari
Happy Halloween Kwaku
Happy Halloween Na'Zyia
Happy Halloween Ife

I hope You have had a great day at school today! I have thought about You all day. I Love You and I Miss You.

I want to be near You, so bad.

Love,

Daddy

2:00 pm - Monday, October 31st/2016

Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Kwaku
Good afternoon Na'Zyia
Good afternoon Ife

I pray that Your Morning went well, and that You are enjoying Your afternoon. I am thinking of You, and You are my heartbeat. I'm saying that You are my heatbeat because I feel weak inside, and my stomach hurts. This feeling I have of not being with You for so long, is the most painful feeling I have felt in my entire life time.

It hurts so bad.

I Miss You

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Have a pleasant afternoon, and continue to strive. My energy is positive, in spite of my hurt and pain.

Love,

Daddy

7:04 am - Monday, October 31st/2016

Good morning Oshone
Good morning Amari
Good morning Kwaku
Good morning Na'Zyia
Good morning Ife

I Love You.
I hope that You rested so well, and are feeling prepared with an abundance of energy to engage Yourselves intellectually while at school. Know that I am sending my prayers in the form of positive thoughts for You because I want You to thrive in excellence at everything that You do.

I Miss You. I wish I were allowed to see You, and contribute more towards Your lives.

I am forever sorry for the mistakes that I have made.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Have a wonderful day!

Love,

Daddy

I wish so bad that I could take You to school this morning like I used to.

12:03 am - Monday, October 31st/2016

Kwaku, I have just arisen from a dream I have had of You. Even in my dreams, You are there. You are all I think about. This dream was of You and I. You fell and I picked You up and held You until I could not hold You and longer.

I Love You

Daddy

8:45 pm - Sunday, October 30th/2016

Good night Oshone
Good night Amari
Good night Kwaku
Good night Na'Zyia
Good night Ife

I Love You from the very bottom of my heart, and I will scream this at the top of my lungs for the world to hear.

I am telling You wonderful Children, that no father Loves their children more than I Love You.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

.. and I really do

Love,

Daddy

6;06 pm - Sunday, October 30th/2016

Good evening Oshone
Good evening Amari
Good evening Kwaku
Good evening Na'Zyia
Good evening Ife

I Love You

You are always on my mind Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

You are always on my mind.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy

5:07 pm - Sunday, October 30th/2016

Oshone, I'm not sure if You go out for Halloween anymore, but if not, I wish I was with You to give You hugs and kisses on Your cheeks.

Amari, if my big son also does not go out trick or treating but I wish I could be with You to learn of all the things You like. I would do my best to give You all that You want.

Kwaku, I believe that You still do go out for Halloween and so I wish I was with You to take You out. I would love to run all throughout the neighborhoods to get You as many treats I could. I really Miss You Kwaku.

Na'Zyia, I wish I could take You out for Halloween so that I could see the big smiles on Your face when we knocked on those doors, and politely said 'trick or treat". I Miss Your smiles, Na'Zyia.

Ife, I would give anything to take You out for Halloween.   I would check all the treats for You to make sure they were safe because I Love You so much. I Miss You Ife.

I am forever sorry.

Love,

Daddy

12:21 am - Sunday, October 30th/2016

Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Kwaku
Good afternoon Na'Zyia
Good afternoon Ife

I Love You!

Today, I have finished the most amazing project for You.

It is from the very depths of my inner being. It is from the very foundation of Love. I am expressing honest Love.

I am a father who Loves his Children to the utmost. I Love You in a special way Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

I Love You

 I Miss You

Love,

Daddy

8:00 am - Sunday, October 30th/2016

Good morning Oshone
Good morning Amari
Good morning Kwaku
Good morning Na'Zyia
Good morning Ife

I Love You with all my Heart!

Love,

Daddy

10:49 pm - Saturday, October 29th/2016

Oshone; I Love You
Amari; I Love You
Kwaku; I Love You
Na'Zyia; I Love You
Ife; I Love You

You are always on my mind

Daddy

8:11 pm - Saturday, October 29th/2016

Good night Oshone
Good night Amari
Good night Kwaku
Good night Na'Zyia
Good night Ife

Tonight, I will say a prayer before I lay down for the night. I will pray that You receive all the good things You want in life! Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife. I will ask God that You are treated in this life time with respect more and more each day. I will beg God to give You the best opportunities to be successful so that many doors are opened for You. I do not want You to have to struggle in this world. I want You to be free; to have freedom so that You have total peace of mind. This will be my prayer for the night.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Good Night

Love,

Daddy

12:46 pm - Saturday, October 29th/2016

Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Kwaku
Good afternoon Na'Zyia
Good afternoon Ife

You are on my mind.  You are always on my mind.  You have always been on my mind.  This is a new way I have found to express the fact that since the time I was in Your lives, until this moment and until eternity, You will always be on my mind.  I Miss You so much Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

I Love You

I hope that You are having a wonderful, joyous day.  I wish I were there, with You to teach You about life.  About mathematics, science, history, geography, art, music, sports and all the subjects You are taking and will take in school.  Including English and French.  It is because I Love You so much, and want to give all I have for You.  To You.  You are all that I LIVE for.

I Miss You in a way words could never explain.

I Love You from the central pulse within my Heart.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Oshone, I am thinking of what to give You for Your birthday.  Your special day is on my mind.

I Love You Children

Love,

Daddy

7:17 am - Saturday, October 29th/2016

Good Morning Ife
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Oshone

I Love You.

I hope that You rested well last night, and are about to have the greatest day ever! 
I want the best for You.  You are all I think about.

I am sorry (from my inner, inner being) that I am not in Your Lives.

I Miss You so much Oshone
I Miss You so much Amari
I Miss You so much Kwaku
I Miss You so much Na'Zyia
I Miss You so much Ife

Please feel my good energy from a far.

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

12:15 am - Saturday, October 29th/2016

Now I lay me; down to sleep.
I pray the Lord, my soul to keep.
Before I wake, I pray the Lord;
My soul to keep.

God Bless

Oshone
Amari
Kwaku
Na'Zyia
Ife
And
Momma

My Loves

10:55 pm - Friday, October 28th/2016

Good Night Oshone
Good Night Amari
Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Ife

I Love You with all my Heart. 
I Love You with all my Might.
I Miss You far more than words could ever say.
I Am Sorry for all eternity.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy

goodnight

6:20 pm - Friday, October 28th/2016

Good Evening Oshone
Good Evening Amari
Good Evening Kwaku
Good Evening Na'Zyia
Good Evening Ife

I Love You So Much.

I Miss You with every beat of my heart.

I am always thinking of You.  Wanting the best for You.  I want Your lives to be so much better than the life I lived growing up.  Your best interests, and Your success in this world is all that matters to me.  Your Joy and Happiness is the most important thing in existence.  At least from my perspective. 

This is what I want for You.  Full and Complete Joy that You experience, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.  This is what I want for You.

I wish to say, I hope that You have had a great day at school, and that You are enjoying Your Friday as the weekend is upon You.  I wish so badly to be there for You, beyond all that I am doing.  I told a good friend the deepest thing.  I had a conversation about how far I am willing to go for You.  Trust in that; It is extremely far.  I would not be doing any harm to anyone or anything.  It is to give You the greatest Love a father could possibly give his Children, and family.  It is totally unselfish. 

Please have a great evening, as I hope You enjoyed Your supper, and are full and healthy.  That I pray You are comfortable and looking forward to the next moment in Your lives.

I Just Love You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

I Just Love You

Love,

Daddy

6:26 pm

1:09 pm - Friday, October 27th/2016

Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Kwaku
Good afternoon Na'Zyia
Good afternoon Ife

I Miss You!!!!!

I hope that You are having a fantastic day at school, and are enjoying the weather (it's not raining today and the Sun is shining).

I am thinking of You so heavy, that it is hard to smile because I only want to be smiling with You near me.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

If only You could know how much You are Loved by me..

Love,

Daddy

6:53 am - Friday, October 28th/2016

Good morning Oshone
Good morning Amari
Good morning Kwaku
Good morning Na'Zyia
Good morning Ife

I Love You. I have just filmed a little clip of my thoughts about You while arriving at work. I pray that You have a pure beautiful day. I truly do.

I Love You greatly
I Love You magnificently
I Just Love You

Love,

Daddy

8:18 pm - Thursday, October 27th/2016

Good night Oshone
Good night Amari
Good night Kwaku
Good night Na'Zyia
Good night Ife

I Miss You so much.

Please dream sweetly this night, and every night that falls thereafter.

I Love You from the depths of my core, and my sincerest being.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku Kijana
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I Love You
I Love You
I Love You
I Love You
I Love You
I Love You

From the bottom of my heart.

Love,

Daddy

3:42 pm - Thursday, October 27th/2016

Good Afternoon Oshone
Good Afternoon Amari
Good Afternoon Kwaku
Good Afternoon Na'Zyia
Good Afternoon Ife

It has been raining all day, today.  I really wish I could be there to keep You safe, warm, dry, and comfortable.  My tummy has been in knots all day, because I am worried You are not completely in total comfort.  I wish I were there.  You have been in my thoughts all day.  I was thinking of the times we used to laugh aloud while playing in the park.  I have been thinking of the jokes I would tell You, and how You would just explode with Joy and Laughter.  You would always encourage me to tell my jokes.  You found me so funny.  I Miss that.  I Miss everything about You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

On a day such as the one we're having today, where rain will fall through the night, I wish I was there to tell You endless jokes, and to play with You whether it's through me doing stand up comedy, or sharing life lessons in an entertaining fashion.  I have so much to give You, not only financially, but through Love.

A Father's Love

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I Just Love You So Much

I Miss You

Love,

Daddy

7:22 am - Thursday, October 27th/2016

Good morning Oshone
Good morning Amari
Good morning Kwaku
Good morning Na'Zyia
Good morning Ife

I Love You. I pray that you rested well, are in good spirits and are looking forward to what today has to offer. I pray that You are safe and warm, for it is a rainy/snowy day.

I dreamt of You last night.

What I would give just to hug You again.

Until I am able, I will forever pray that we are reunited.

It is because I Love You so much.

I Love You

Love, Daddy

9:40 pm - Wednesday, October 26th/2016

Good Night Oshone
Good Night Amari
Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Ife

Good Night Sweet Babies.

I say to You;

Good Night

I Love You

I Miss You

Love,

Daddy

12:38 pm - Wednesday, October 26th/2016

Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Kwaku
Good afternoon Na'Zyia
Good afternoon Ife

You are on my mind..
You are in my heart..

My eyes are teary at this moment because I miss You so much.

I absolutely Love You

Love,

Daddy

8:13 am - Wednesday, October 26th/2016

Good morning Oshone
Good morning Amari
Goood morning Kwaku
Good morning Na'Zyia
Good morning Ife

I want to wish you a beautiful day at school!!

I Love You
I Miss You

Love,

Daddy

7:15 pm - Tuesday, October 25th/2016

Good night Oshone
Good night Amari
Good night Kwaku
Good night Na'Zyia
Good night Ife

I wish for You to have the sweetest of dreams, because You deserve this. You are remarkable Children, and You must know this is how I feel! This is who You are.

I Love You

Please travel safely to school tomorrow, and have a beautiful day, while at school (Wednesday, October 26th/2016).

Please know that You are always on my mind. No!! Please know that I have a hurt tummy because I do not know what You are doing, and where You are.  I want to be there with You, protecting You and making sure You do not have a worry or concern in the world. I am a father that always wants to be sure that You are better than alright. That You are great in every way. All I care about is my five Children. All I care about is You.

This is a sliver of how I feel for You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife. Just a sliver.

I Love You

I am Kwame James

I am..

Dad

3:38 pm - Tuesday, October 25th/2016

I wish to say, I hope that You have had a great day at school Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

I Miss You

I Love You

Dad

1:04 pm - Tuesday, October 25th/2016

Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Kwaku
Good afternoon Na'Zyia
Good afternoon Ife

I'm missing You. These days and nights are difficult because I Love You so much, and I Miss You.

I hope that Your day is going well. What more can I say.
I Love You.

Love,

Daddy

6:53 am - Tuesday, October 25th/2016

Good morning Oshone
Good morning Amari
Good morning Kwaku
Good morning Na'Zyia
Good morning Ife

Have a wonderful day at school. You are always on my mind.

I Miss You
I Love You

Love,

Daddy

7:47 pm - Monday, October 24th/2016

Goodnight Oshone
Goodnight Amari
Goodnight Kwaku
Goodnight Na'Zyia
Goodnight Ife

I Love You
I Miss You

Everything I do, I do it for You
Before I expire, You will know how deep my Love is, for You

Goodnight Babies

Love,

Daddy

6:17 pm - Monday, October 24th/2016

Good evening Oshone
Good evening Amari
Good evening Kwaku
Good evening Na'Zyia
Good evening Ife

I pray that You have finished dinner and are feeling so good.

I Miss You

I Love You

.. I am always thinking of You

Love,

Daddy

4:03 pm - Monday, October 24th/2016

Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Kwaku
Good afternoon Na'Zyia
Good afternoon Ife

I Miss You

I Love You

I hope that you have had a great day at school, today. I was thinking of You, and am still thinking of You.

I hope that You are enjoying snacks, and are warm and safe.

I really miss You and..
I really, really Love You.

Love,

Daddy

6:19 am - Monday, October 24th/2016

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

I Love You

I want You to have a beautiful Monday.  I hope that You rested well, and are enthusiastic about this day.  I myself, am on my way to work but I wanted to let You know that I Miss You so Much.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy

9:31 pm - Sunday, October 23rd/2016

Good Night Ife
Good Night Amari
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Oshone
Good Night Kwaku

I Miss You..

I have spent the entire day thinking of You, and how You are doing.  I have been thinking of how I can benefit Your lives.  About how I can make Your lives better.  I have had a myriad of positive thoughts on how better to contribute towards Your happiness.  Towards Your joy.  It is because I Love You so very much.

I Love You.

I Wish to say, goodnight and sweet dreams from the very bottom of my aching heart.  Through adversity, one is truly introduced to themselves.  Adversity comes in the form of not being with You Oshone.  Of not being with You Amari.  Of not being with You Kwaku.  Of not being with You Na'Zyia.  Of not being with You Ife.  I am sorry to the point that, my inner core;  My inner being is without a pulse.  It is without a heart beat, because You are my heart.  If You are not here, and I am not present in Your lives, my heart can no longer beat.  I only go forward with peace and Love because I pray that I will get to see You one day Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.  I only Love You.  My Love is for You.

Please have a wonderful day at school tomorrow (Monday, October 24th/2016).  I will be thinking of You.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy

12:47 pm - Sunday, October 23rd/2016

Good Afternoon Oshone
Good Afternoon Amari
Good Afternoon Kwaku
Good Afternoon Na'Zyia
Good Afternoon Ife

I Love You

I wish for You to always be polite.  Please say thank you, for when anytime a person does something positive for You.  Please always start Your request with 'May You Please', when asking something of someone.  Excuse Yourself by saying 'pardon me', or 'excuse me' when You interrupt a person or when You do something outside Your character.  When You also are acting impolitely, do not be ashamed to say "I am sorry".  When You do not hear what a person may say, "pardon me" is an appropriate way for You to ask for them to repeat themselves.  Please brush Your teeth, at least twice a day (I say this because I used to brush Your teeth in the morning before school, and before You went to bed).  Study, and take interest in Your homework/school work.  Listen to those who speak, and embrace that which You do not know.

These are some of the things I wish I could give You, if I were in Your lives (and I am trying so hard, to be there for You).

I Miss You

Have a beautiful afternoon Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Love,

Daddy

9:40 am - Sunday, October 23rd/2016

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

I Miss You, so very much.  I hope that You rested well last night, and are happy to begin Your Sunday morning.  I hope that You had a healthy and nutritious breakfast, and are looking forward to Your lunch and dinner later today. 

I really miss You, beyond anything I could think or say with words.  I was telling one of Your Uncles yesterday that my heart has never felt so weak, nor have I been so heartbroken in my entire life because You are not here; and I am not there. 

I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Amari
I Love You Ife
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Oshone

Beyond any words;

I really Love You so much.

Love,

Daddy

12:52 am - Sunday, October 23rd/2016

Lesson in Love

Oshone; I Love You
Amari; I Love You
Kwaku; I Love You
Na'Zyia; I Love You
Ife; I Love You

Look here; Love is not anything to be fooled around with.  You can't just go fooling around with Love.  It is to be treasured.  It is the strongest force in the Universe.  It is not an "it". 

Please be careful with Love. 

Dream ever so sweetly, and please feel my Love.

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

11:41 pm - Saturday, October 22nd/2016

Good Night Ife
Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Amari
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Oshone

Forever in my heart..

Forever on my mind..

I Love You Forever Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Love,

Daddy

12:02 pm - Saturday, October 22nd/2016

I MISS YOU OSHONE
I MISS YOU AMARI
I MISS YOU KWAKU
I MISS YOU NA'ZYIA
I MISS YOU IFE

I am alone, wishing I were with You.

I Love You So Much..

I Have so much to say..

I wish to say that I do not want my life, if I cannot have my life without You. 
I Live For You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

8:31 am - Saturday, October 22nd/2016

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

I wish to express Love.  I am a positive man, and I Love giving good energy throughout the many people in my life.  Ironically, it is only You Oshone.  It is only You, Amari.  It is only You Kwaku.  It is only You, Na'Zyia.  It is only You, Ife; that I live for, and have a yearning to be next to.  The whole purpose of my life is to be there for You, yet, I am not allowed.  Life it seems, is not without it's interwoven ironies.

I pray that You have a beautiful Saturday.  I hope that You smile through and through, as the day unfolds and that You laugh until Your cheeks hurt. 

I will be thinking of You all day.  LITERALLY.  You will not leave my mind, not even for a moment.  That is not allowed, nor am I capable of ever having You leave my mind.  You are always on my Mind Oshone. 

You are always on my Mind Amari.
You are always on my Mind Kwaku.
You are always on my Mind Na'Zyia.
You are always on my Mind Ife.

.. and I Miss You so Much!

.. and I Love You so Much!

I Love You Children,

Please be kind, considerate, and go forward; always with Niceness.

Love,

Daddy

11:15 pm - Friday, October 21st/2016

You have been on my mind all day - Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I am now home from a long day at work.  I must admit; that I am exhausted.  However, I need for You to know how I do Love You so.  My every thought revolves are You wonderful Children.  I am doing the best I can, to make up for all that I have done wrong in the past.  I am working on being the best man that I can possibly be, every day.  That is why I ask God for forgiveness, every day, 10 times a day.  It is because I own my flaws.  I am embarrassed by the way I once viewed myself.  I am not even close to the good man I once thought I was.  So every day, I strive to become better in every characteristic that is me.  I hope that I am improving.  My Mother, Father, Brothers, Sisters and friends think the world of me, but I am looking to be great for me.  For You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife - I would like for You to know that I have tried.  That I am trying, and the motivation behind everything I do is the grandest inspiration of You.

I Miss You

I pray that You had a wonderful Friday.  I pray that You are resting so sweet right now, and that there are smiles on Your faces.  I wish I could hug You, and Kiss You on the cheeks.  That is something I would always do.

Happy Weekend, and I do also hope You enjoy this Saturday, and Sunday.

I Miss You again and again.

More still...

I Love You SO Much.

Love,

Daddy

2:20 pm - Friday, October 21st/2016

Dear Oshone
Dear Amari
Dear Kwaku
Dear Na'Zyia
Dear Ife

There is nothing I would not do for You.  I Miss You

I Love You

I hope the rain is not preventing You from having the best day.  I always say; You can find the positive in any life situation.  90% of Your experience in life is based on Your attitude.  See the Joy in the replenishing water brings to the Earth.  To life.  See the joy through the spectacles of Natures Eyes.  See the Earth as the source that connects physical objects, with life.  Life and energy as one.  It is the harmony of Physics, Chemistry, and Biology.  It is life sciences.

I Absolutely Love You Children.

Love,

Daddy

12:22 pm - Friday, October 21st/2016

Good Afternoon Oshone
Good Afternoon Amari
Good Afternoon Kwaku
Good Afternoon Na'Zyia
Good Afternoon Ife

When you were small, I would push You on the swings at the park.  You enjoyed this very much.  I enjoyed bringing You Joy.  Making You smile.  Seeing Your smiles.  We would go on the see-saws, and have competitions on the monkey-bars.  I would watch You go down the slide, which also You were delighted in.

When we would walk to school, I would speak with You about nature.  About the leaves that grow on trees, and about the pond that ran along the path down the hill.  I would explain what makes snow flakes so beautiful, and through all this, we would sing beautiful songs.  When it rained, I would hold the umbrella for You when the wind became too intense. 

These are little things.  Small things.  What has created greater thoughts in myself, is that these moments are what matter most.  It is not what I am doing now for You that counts, in my eyes.  It is the fact that I am no longer able to spend tender moments directly with You.  I will continue to do the right thing in life for You, which is all that I am allowed to do, but I want You to know that all I want is to be with You.  To be there for You, as Daddy. 

As Dad.

I Miss You

I Absolutely Love You with all my heart, Ife, Na'Zyia, Kwaku, Amari, Oshone

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

8:46 am - Friday, October 21st/2016

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

I Love You more than I Love myself.

Please have a beautiful day at school.  Happy Friday to You.

I Miss You so much

I Love You So Much

Love,

Daddy

I ask God to forgive me for the mistakes that I have made, everyday, ten times a day

1:42 am - With You on my mind Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I ask God to forgive me for the mistakes that I have made, everyday, ten times a day
I ask God to forgive me for the Mistakes That I Have Made, everyday, ten times a day
I ask GOD to forgive me for the mistakes that I have made everyday, 10 times a day
I ASK God to forgive me for the mistakes that I have made, everyday, ten times a day
I ask God to FORGIVE me for the mistakes that I have made everyday, 10 times a day
I Ask God To Forgive Me For The Mistakes That I Have Made, Everyday, 10 Times A Day
I ask God to forgive me for THE MISTAKES THAT I HAVE MADE, everyday, 10 times a day
I ask God to forgive me for the Mistakes that I have MADE, every day, ten times a day
I ask God to forgive me for the mistakes that I have made everyday, ten times a DAY



I BEG GOD
I FALL TO MY KNEES for forgiveness

EVERY DAY, I QUIETLY, and HUMBLY ASK GOD TO FORGIVE ME FOR THE MISTAKES THAT I HAVE MADE, TEN TIMES A DAY.  EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE.

Omari

11:19 pm - Thursday, October 20th/2016

Good Night Oshone
Good Night Amari
Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Ife

I have come home from work, and I washed up.  Then I went to the living room, and kneeled by the sofa.  I said a beautiful prayer.  An unselfish prayer, seeded in yearning for what is truly Best for You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

I pray that You have had a wonderful and inspiring day at school today.  I pray that You are looking forward to tomorrow.  I pray that You are also looking forward to the weekend. 

I will be thinking of You.  I will forever hold You in my heart.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Always positive.  Never negative.

Love,

Daddy

2:29 pm - Thursday, October 20th/2016

Good Afternoon Oshone
Good Afternoon Amari
Good Afternoon Kwaku
Good Afternoon Na'Zyia
Good Afternoon Ife

I Love You So much!!!

Love,

Daddy

1:35 pm - Thursday, October 20th/2016

Good afternoon Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I pray that You are having a great day at school, despite the rainy weather (precipitation).  It is not too chilly, so I am hoping You are warm, dry, and safe as can be. 

I Love You and I Miss You, and this has never changed.  Only increased over the years.

I pray that Your dentist and doctors appointments confirm Your good health, and that You are growing strong and beautiful.

I really Love You, and wish I was with You.

Love,

Daddy

7:28 am - Thursday, October 20th/2016

Good Morning Oshone.  I Love You
Good Morning Amari.  I Love You
Good Morning Kwaku.  I Love You
Good Morning, Na'Zyia.  I Love You
Good Morning Ife.  I Love You

Please be secure.  Please be confident.  Be strong, and trust in Your abilities.  Know that the only Judge, other than the Most High that is qualified to evaluate who You are naturally, is Yourself. 

I pray that You have a wonderful day, as I envision Your journey towards school this morning.  Know that I am thinking of You.

Continuously.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I Miss You so much..

Love,

Daddy

11:36 pm - Wednesday, October 19th/2016

Good Night Oshone
Good Night Amari
Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Ife

My heart is broken.  It is difficult to put these feelings into words. 
I Miss You Oshone
I Miss You Amari
I Miss You Kwaku
I Miss You Na'Zyia
I Miss You Ife

I think of You as the most amazing Children in the World!
I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I Pray that You have had a great day, all around.

Night Night wonderful Children.

Love,

Daddy

1:25 pm - Wednesday, October 19th/2016

Good Afternoon Ife
Good Afternoon Na'Zyia
Good Afternoon Amari
Good Afternoon Oshone
Good Afternoon Kwaku

I Miss You. 

I exhale deeply..

I exhale because I Love You So Much.

7:00 am - Wednesday, October 19th/2016

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

Put God first in Your life, and You will see all Your dreams come true.  Believe that there is a Higher Force, that Loves You and seeks to focus on maintaining Your trod along the positive path. 

I pray that You rested well.  I pray You had the sweetest of dreams, and were cozy through the night.  I prayed for You before I rested.

I pray that You have a glorious Wednesday, on Your way to school, while at school, and then after school.  I envision Your movements, from the brushing of Your teeth, to how each arm goes through Your shirts as You dress Yourselves for school.  I envision You sitting in class, playing at recess, and enjoying this life.

Please know that I want the very best for You.

I Love You

I Miss You

I Love You so very much

Love,

Daddy

11:37 pm - Tuesday, October 18th/2016

Good Night Oshone
Good Night Amari
Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Ife

I hope that You had a great day at school, today.  You have been in my thoughts, and on my mind all day long, and all night.  I will say a prayer before I go to bed tonight, asking for forgiveness.  Asking that You be protected, cherished, and Loved beyond measure.

I dream.. I pray.. I ask God to please allow me to have You back in my life Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

I Love You so much.
I Miss You.

Good Night Babies.

Love,

Daddy

1:28 pm - Tuesday, October 18th/2016

Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Kwaku
Good afternoon Na'Zyia
Good afternoon Ife

I hope that Your day at school is going very well.  I wanted to write to You and say that I Miss You so much.

That I Love You.

I will be strong.

Love,

Daddy

6:58 am - Tuesday, October 18th/2016

Good Morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I am writing to wish You a beautiful day at school today.  To let You know that I am here, thinking of You and that I carry You in my heart, everyday.  All day.  Please know this.  Please, feel this.

I Love You and I wish for You to take initiative, and apply Yourselves to higher learning.  To practicing Your school work so that it becomes second nature.  I recommend approaching everyone You encounter with kindness. 

I Love You

Please do not doubt that my heart is broken and continues to break everyday without You.  Yet still;
I am forever sorry.

Love,

Daddy

12:37 am - Tuesday, October 18th/2016

I Love You Oshone.  From the bottom of my heart.
I Love You Amari.  From the bottom of my heart.
I Love You Kwaku.  From the bottom of my heart.
I Love You Na'Zyia.  From the bottom of my heart.
I Love You Ife.  From the bottom of my heart.

Words spoken from my heart.

Daddy

11:39 pm - Monday, October 17th/2016

Good Night Oshone
Good Night Amari
Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Ife

I Love You. 

I Pray that You have had an amazing day at school, today!  I thought about You all day, and I will be thinking of You all night.  I will say a prayer for You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife before I go to bed.  It is because I want the best for You.

When I got home from work, I was thinking "I'm going to write Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife - I will do anything and I will give anything to have You back in my life".

I said it.  I'm going to say it again. 

I will do anything and I will give anything to have You back in my life.

I Miss You so much.

I Love You

Good Night

Love,

Daddy

1:53 pm - Monday, October 17th/2016

Good Afternoon Oshone
Good Afternoon Amari
Good Afternoon Kwaku
Good Afternoon Na'Zyia
Good Afternoon Ife

I hope that Your day at school is going very well.  I am thinking of You.

I Miss You

Please have a safe, and inspiring one and a half hours in Your classes until the school bell rings and You are on Your way home.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy

8:05 am - Oct 17th/2016 Oshone Amari Kwaku Na'Zyia Ife

I wanted You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife to know that I am picturing You on Your way to school, wishing I could be there with You to give You positive vibes.  To ensure that You were smiling on Your way to school.  I would be singing Your favorite songs, telling You jokes to make You laugh, and also, stressing the importance of concentrating while in class.  I would be saying, what matters above all is how well You do in school.  You could be popular, or funny, or shy and quiet, but the grades You achieve will determine Your futures.  Example; Your favorite singers and video games were all produced for You to enjoy them by the people or person who worked very hard to make them entertaining.  Everything You like or look forward to came from individuals putting their maximum concentration forward, and dedicated years of their lives to make everyone feel good. 

All good things in life are the result of high energy, and effort.  Trust me.  All things in life.  From the food You eat, to the clothes You wear.  Everything.

I Love You and I wish I were there, with You.

Kwaku, Amari, Ife, Na'Zyia, Oshone.. I Miss you.

Love,

Daddy

6:05 am - Monday, October 17th/2016

Good Morning Oshone Osai
Good Morning Amari Mosiah
Good Morning Kwaku Oluwasei
Good Morning Na'Zyia Skye
Good Morning Ife Lia'Jasiri

I want You to have the best Monday, at school today.  I pray that You are enthusiastic about this day!  I pray, also that You maintain a Joy, deep within Your hearts.  I wish for You to go forward with kindness, and to respect one another.  To treat everyone the exact same way You want to be treated.  To study and take interest in Your classes.  I hope that Your teachers are dynamite, and are considerate, and also care for You in terms of Your learning, and overall well being. 

You are everything to me Oshone
You are everything to me Amari
You are everything to me Kwaku
You are everything to me Na'Zyia
You are everything to me Ife

I Miss You and..

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

8:50 pm - Sunday, October 16th/2016

Good Night Oshone.  I Love You and I Miss You.
Good Night Amari.  I Love You and I Miss You.
Good Night Kwaku.  I Love You and I Miss You.
Good Night Na'Zyia.  I Love You and I Miss You.
Good Night Ife.  I Love You and I Miss You.

I am forever sorry for not being a better father.  I am forever sorry.  I pray that You are safe, and warm.  I pray that You are comfortable, and have great Health.  I pray that You look forward to tomorrow.  I pray that no one makes You feel discomfort, ashamed, or embarrassed.  If their is someone who is bringing You down, please talk to Your Momma and Your teachers about them.  I am not there (this hurts so much) so I cannot do anything to help in this regard.  Please know that if I were there, I would do everything to change a negative situation into a positive one. 

I Miss You Oshone, and You are always on my mind.
I Miss You Amari, and You are always on my mind.
I Miss You Kwaku, and You are always on my mind.
I Miss You Na'Zyia, and You are always on my mind.
I Miss You Ife, and You are always on my mind.

"You see this fish.  It's a snapper.  Fisherman use trap and catch him.  But sometime rough rough weather come, and take away the trap, with the fish in it.  And this fish, will live in this trap.  And the trap will catch other fish.  And feed him.  Until he grow BIG!  And the trap get weak.  And then, him just break out.  Well it's just so, You must know". 

Night Night

Love,

Daddy

7:04 pm - Sunday, October 16th/2016

Good Evening Oshone
Good Evening Amari
Good Evening Kwaku
Good Evening Na'Zyia
Good Evening Ife

I wish You a beautiful evening/night and pray that You have Joy within Your hearts, are optimistic, smiling, and shining bright.  I say shining bright, because You have much to offer this world, within Your lives, and I am confident You will maximize Your potential.  You will be Great, because You are Great.

I Love You

I wish to say, take pride in all that You do, and maintain an above average work ethic.  It is not only Your ability and talents that will take You far.  How hard You work in School on Your subjects and how many hours per day You dedicate to Your passions will translate to all Your dreams, becoming a reality.  Let me repeat that!

How hard You work in School on Your subjects and how many hours per day You dedicate to Your passions will translate to all Your dreams, becoming a reality.  Dreams do come true Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.  Please, do not let anyone dissuade You from this fact.  The only time a dream is lost, is when You give up.  Never give up!  Please.  Never give up.

I Love You

Please Love one another, and give the utmost respect to Your Momma.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy

1:03 pm - Sunday, October 16th/2016

Good Afternoon Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Whenever You may look up at the stars, in the night sky; please know that the awe and inspiration this view fills You with, is also shared by myself.  I am deeply moved, and almost to the point of tears when I stare at the sky.  If the rain touches Your emotions, know that it too touches me within as well.  If a rainbow encourages You to take pause, at its beauty, know that I share this sentiment as well.  If the sound of the wind, through the leaves makes You shiver inside, please know that I shiver to.  If the Hawks and Eagles in the sky fill You with wonder, know that I am mystified by them as well. 

If You find that You Love, nature; please know that nature Loves You.  My contribution to these sentiments, is that;

I Love You

Oshone
Amari
Kwaku
Na'Zyia
Ife

You mean the World to me.

I Miss You and I..

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

7:59 am - Sunday, October 15th/2016

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

I hope You rested well, and had the sweetest of dreams last night.  I pray that You have a wonderful Sunday, and are starting off the day with a healthy and well rounded breakfast. 

I Miss You
I Love You

.. and, this hurts

Love,

Daddy

12:26 am - Sunday, October 16th/2016

Oshone

Amari

KWAKU

NA'ZYIA

IFE

I am awake Missing You..

Thinking of You.

Loving You

Daddy

7:05 pm Saturday, October 15th/2016

Good Night Oshone
Good Night Amari
Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Ife

I wish You the greatest night, sweet Children.  I Miss You So Much.  I just wanted to tell You that I Love You so much, and I Am Forever Trying To Be With You.  My whole purpose in life is to be with You.  I do not want You to ever forget me, our great moments, or how Much I Love You.  How much You Loved Me.  I Miss You so much.  I am sorry, from the depths of my soul.  I am truly sorry.

Have a beautiful evening/night, and please know that I am always thinking of You.  You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife - are always on my mind.  I stare at Your photos every day of my life.  I watch videos of You every single day of my life.  If only You could know.

Love,

Daddy

12:23 pm - Saturday, October 15th/2016

Good Afternoon Oshone
Good Afternoon Amari
Good Afternoon Kwaku Kijana
Good Afternoon Na'Zyia
Good Afternoon Ife

I Love You, and Miss You Children.  I hope that You are having a wonderful Saturday.  I pray that You are smiling right at this very moment.  I pray that You are laughing and enjoying this day.

You are always on my mind, and I truly would do anything to have You in my life. 

I Miss You

I Love You beyond any words.

Love,

Daddy

4:56 A.M. I Rise Above The Sun, And Fall From The Skye

Good Morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Am Here

I am wishing upon all light, and all energy that I do the right things in this world, so that I may see You again.

I believe in balance.  This belief is seeded in Karma.  I humbly accept my punishments.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy

12:36 am Saturday, October 15th/2016

Good Night Oshone
Good Night Amari
Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Ife

I pray that You are sleeping like Butterflyz.

Love,

Daddy

Good Evening Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

6:23 pm - Friday, October 14th/2016

I have so much Love to give, and want to ensure I continue to grow intellectually, emotionally, physically, and spiritually.  I am established in life, and have matured.  For me, this is all due to life experience, inner reflection, and recognizing the flaws in myself.  The culmination of that which I have just expressed, is understanding what Love truly is.  I innerstand; Love.  That is why I say that I am only Love, and have only Love.  I Love that I have grown and matured.  I Love that I see good, and positive in life experiences.  My mistakes have brought about change.  True change.  This was for me to become who I was always supposed to be.  I see Love.  I am Love.

Most of all; I'm saving all my Love for You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

Have a beautiful night, filled with Love and Peace.

I Love You

I Miss You

Love,

Daddy 

Good Afternoon Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

1:33 pm Friday, October 14th/2016

I Love You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I am thinking of You.  Continuously.  I hope You have had a great day at school.  I wish I was there to pick You up, and hear about what Your experiences were, for the day.  I would just listen, while You speak to me, without interfering Your words.  Your expressions mean the world to me.

I pray You have a great weekend, as it is Friday afternoon and You only have 2 short hours of school remaining.  Have so much fun, and please know that I would give anything to be there with You.

I Miss You So Much

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

7:23 am Friday, October 14th/2016

Good Morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I pray that You rested well last night.  I thought of You while I worked through the night, hoping You were so beautifully sleeping enjoying the sweetest of dreams.

I Love You..

I had overwhelming thoughts, this night while You were resting Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.  They were;

If ever You cry, know that I wish I was there to make You smile again.
If ever You are afraid, please know that I wish I were there to bring Your confidence back.
If ever You worry; please know that I wish I were there to bring peace and calm to You.
If ever You feel angry, please know that I wish I were there to make You feel Joyful.

Most of all, if ever You Miss Me..
..please know that I am dying inside!!!  That I Miss You So.. So.. Much

Please have a nice Friday, and through these words, I will hold my head and go on and on..
Wishing I were there;

With You

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy who Miss You

Good Night Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I am trying so hard to be with You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.  I strive for peace.  I strive to be a good man, every day of my life. 

I strive to return to You.

I pray that You are warm, comfortable, and protected.  I pray You are Loved and feel the Love You are given in the most excellence of positivity. 

I Miss You so much.

I Love You So Much.

Good night sweet Children.

Love,

Daddy

Good Afternoon, Babies; Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

12:48 pm, Thursday, October 13th/2016

I need to say Good Afternoon Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.
You are always on my mind.  I exist for You, therefore, You are always in my Heart.

I pray that Your day at school is going well.  I am envisioning You in class, and on lunch break, and at recess all the while.  It is because I Love You.

I Love You so much.
I am forever sorry for not being in Your lives.
I Miss You so much.
I am trying to find a way to make this up to You.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy

7:30 am Thursday, October 13th/2016

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

You are my Heart.  I Miss You so much. 
I want to wish You a great day at school.
I have thought of You all night, while at work and will be thinking of You all day, as well.

I Love You so much.

Love,

Daddy

Oct 12th/2016 - Good Night Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I want to wish You sweet dreams, tonight Beautiful Children.

I wish to ask for Your forgiveness, for me being unable to tuck You into bed this evening.  For me not being there.. which is the only place I wish to be.

I want to ask that You look deep within Yourself, and feel my good energy, that I send You every second of every day.

I send You only Goodness, because I Love You so much.

Good Night Oshone
Good Night Amari
Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Ife

I Love You so much!

Love,

Daddy

Time Travel

I am honest.  I have evolved as a human being.  I pray that I have improved in my character because I want to be a good man.

If I could go back in time, I would travel to the place where I fell in Love with *, and * fell in Love with me. I would tell her, that I am a time traveler from the future, and that I Love her even 4000 years later. I would tell her that we become one in marriage and have 5 beautiful children together. Then I would say, I turn out to be an abusive husband, and one who does not provide joy in her life. I would be honest in saying, she should not decide on making me her man. In conclusion, I would tell her that knowing what I know now, I would never harm her nor would I do anything other than express true Love, and therefore provide her with Joy, Continuously. Then I would ask if she would accept my deepest and most sincere apology for not being a man deserving of her Love.

Autumn Season OAKNI

I Love Nature,

Of the four seasons we experience, I am most affected by the Autumn season.  I draw upon an inward emotional connection with nature, whenever this season draws near or is upon us.  For me, the visions of Our Family taking walks in our neighbor hood, walking to the park, building campfires in the backyard, and drinking tea overwhelm my mind.  This is something I always dream of.  I want so badly, to watch You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife - Grow.  Through Your growth, I want to be the most responsible and loving father.  To nurture and to offer good energy towards You.

This is what I dream of..
This is who I am.

I Love you and I hope You are enjoying Your time off school as it is now 4:18 pm (Wednesday, October 12th/2016).

You are always on my mind (whether I write words or not).  You are always on my mind.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy

I Love You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good Afternoon Oshone
Good Afternoon Amari
Good Afternoon Kwaku
Good Afternoon Na'Zyia
Good Afternoon Ife

2:19 pm October 12/2016 (Wednesday)

I am moved deeply by move Love for Family and more specifically, You Oshone, You Amari, You Kwaku, You Na'Zyia, You Ife.

I Love You So Much!

I pray that Your day in school has been well, and being that You have less than an hour remaining until the school "bells" ring, I hope You enjoy the rest of Your day there.  I am always thinking of You, and these thoughts are a mere fraction of the extent to which You remain on my mind.

I Miss You So Much

Love,

Daddy

Good Morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

7:24 am Wednesday, October 12th/2016

I Love You Ife
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Amari Mos
I Love You Oshone

I MISS You so much!

I Pray that You have a wonderful day at school.  I Pray that You learn from the wisest, at Your highest levels of concentration.  This, I Pray for.

Most of all, I Pray that You are Loved and feel Joy.

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

Good Night

Ife; I apologize
Amari; I Miss You
Oshone; I apologize
Zyia; I Miss You
Kwaku; I apologize
*****; I Miss You

I Love You Children.  I pray that You have a good night's rest, and have Love surrounding You at all times.  That You are safe, and protected.  That You are smiling.

Continuously.

I hope You had a beautiful morning, afternoon, evening, and have a great night - and all the in betweens.

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

Good Afternoon Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good Afternoon Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

It is 5:11 pm.  I had to force myself awake (as I am on Night Shift at work) because I Love You so much and wanted to say that I pray You had a great day at school.  I wish that I were in Your lives, so that I could hear about Your day.  So that I could just listen to You.  That would for me be like winning the lottery.  Just to hear You speak, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

I hope You have a good afternoon and evening.

Please know and feel my Love.  It is for You. 

I Love You So Much.

I Miss You So Much.

Love,

Daddy

Good Morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

I pray that You are having a beautiful day at school.  You have been on my mind.  You are on my mind.  Continuously.  I have just arrived home from work (a 12 hour shift) and am writing You to say that I Love You and that I Miss You.

I pray that You are smiling, and that You are happy.  I hope my good energy reaches You in a form that is beyond words, yet is glorious.

I Truly Love You Oshone
I Truly Love You Amari
I Truly Love You Kwaku
I Truly Love You Na'Zyia
I Truly Love You Ife

I Miss You with all that I am

Love,

Daddy

Good Night Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I pray that You rest well through the night.  Not just this night, but all nights. 
I Miss You so much.  I send You good energy, and all the positive thoughts in the world because I wish for You to receive Joy on Earth.

This evening, I spoke with Shawn Rose' Mom (Janet) on the phone for an hour.  She constantly reminded me to be strong for You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.
I must go now.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

Good evening Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I just wanted to say that I Love You and I hope that You are enjoying Your Thanks Giving weekend.  I have spent today thinking of only You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.  I must go into work for 12 hours, however, I wanted to show You what daddy looks like after crying for You..

as I always do.

Continuously.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I Miss You so much..

Love,

Daddy

Good afternoon Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love You so much..

I Miss You so much..

I hope that You are having a good day.  It is Monday, October 10th/2016 at 1:27 pm so You ordinarily would be in school, however, today is celebrated holiday.  I must go into work this evening, but as always;

You will never leave my mind, nor my heart.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy

I Ask God To Forgive Me For The Mistakes That I Have Made, 10 Times A Day, Everyday

Oshone
Amari
Kwaku
Na'Zyia
Ife

I Ask God To Forgive Me For The Mistakes That I Have Made, 10 Times a Day.. Everyday
I Ask God To Forgive Me For The Mistakes That I Have Made, Every Single Day, Ten Times A Day
Oshone, I Ask God To Forgive Me For The Mistakes That I Have Made, ten times per Day, Everyday
Amari, I Ask The Most High To Forgive ME for the Mistakes That I have made, 10 times per day, Eveyday
KWAKU - I ask The Higher Force to Forgive Me for The Mistakes That I have made, ten times a day, Every Day!
Na'Zyia, I ask The Creator to forgive me for the mistakes that I have made everyday, 10 times a day, Everyday.
IFE - I ask GOD to Forgive Me For The Mistakes That I have made, 10 times a day, Every single day of my life.
I Ask God to forgive me for the mistakes that I have made, 10 times per day, every day.
I ask God to Forgive ME for the Mistakes that I have made, ten times a day, every day.
I ask God To Forgive me for the mistakes that I have made, every day; 10 Times a day.

I LoVE You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I LOve You KWAKU
I lOVE You Na'Zyia
I LovE You Ife

Love,

Daddy

8 am Monday, October 10th/2016

Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love You

How I wish to hold You, and comfort You.  How I wish to guide and protect You.  Shine good energy, and positive light on You.

I Miss You

If I were allowed to be in Your lives, I would treasure every moment.  I would not take one moment for granted.  I would ensure that You are given opportunities, that very few children are given, to excel and advance with confidence in this life.  I would provide for You the knowledge very few fathers give their children, because I am unselfish.  All that matters is You; Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife. 

All that matters is You

Love,

Daddy

Good Morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

I Love You.  I pray that You are continuing this morning, the most beautiful dreams as it is still very early.  It is 5 am, on Monday October 10th/2016.  It is officially Thanks Giving day, and I hope You enjoy all the good food prepared for You.  Some celebrate this day, one day early so if You have already enjoyed Your Thanks Giving, I wish to say that You deserve the best food and the best of times possible.  You deserve this because You are the best children in the world. 

I Love You with all my heart.

I Miss You

Love,

Daddy

Good Night Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good Night Children,

I wish I were able to read to You tonight prior to Your rest.  I want to wish you a Happy Thanks Giving.  I wish to send good energy towards You, as that is all I am.  Good Energy.  I want to let You know that I am always thinking of You, wishing I were there; with You.  I wish for Kwaku to have enjoyed His Birthday to the fullest.  I want Amari to Know that I Love Him, dearly.  I want Oshone to know that I wish to make up for all my wrongs.  I want Ife to know that I need Her.  I need Your hugs Ife.  I need to hug You back, real strong.  I need Na'Zyia to know that it was supposed to be You and I - I protected and watching Your back until the end of time.  I Miss You Na'Zyia.  I Miss You Oshone.  I Miss You Kwaku.  I Miss You Amari.  I Miss You Ife.  You are all I Want.

I Want to be with You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

I am forever sorry.

I Love You

Sweet Dreams Children

Love,

Daddy

Good afternoon Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Please do not ever think that YOU are not on my mind.  I have been itching to write You since I have arisen this morning.  I dream of You; Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.  I literally DREAM of You.  Last nights dream was of You, Oshone.  It hurt.  It hurt because You had written on a slice of paper that "I hate Daddy".  It forced me awake at 4 am this morning (Sunday, October 9th/2016). 

It hurt so bad...

Nothing in this Universe could make me change my path.  I am on a path of reuniting with You, Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.  I venture out in this trajectory because I LOVE YOU so much.  I understand in this life, what matters most is the Joy of Others.  Your Joy is what matters the most.  My joy is a non factor.  However, if You only knew that.. I have so much Love to give.  I just want to give Love. 

Words spoken from the heart.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I will go on Loving You Children, forever

Love,

Daddy

4:05 am Sunday, October 9th/2016

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

I Just want to say..

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

I Love You Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife, Oshone

Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Amari
Good Night Ife
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Oshone

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

IFE NA'ZYIA OSHONE KWAKU AMARI - I AM ALWAYS THINKING OF YOU

I wish I had knowledge of all, so that I could know exactly what to do to bring You back to me.  I wish I knew exactly what it is I could do, so that we would not be a part.  I am confident of good over evil, and I do not consider myself evil so I am optimistic that we will be together again. 

I wish I knew for over four years now, what I am allowed to say or not say.  I wish I knew how to be a good man, husband, and father so that I could avoid my absence today.  All I know..

All I know, is that I want to be a great human being for YOU.  That is all I know.

I Miss You Oshone
I Miss You Amari
I Miss You Kwaku
I Miss You Na'Zyia
I MISS YOU IFE

I am so sorry

I Love You,

Daddy

Good Morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

5:40 am Saturday, October 8th/2016

Oshone
Amari
Kwaku
Na'Zyia
Ife

I Miss You

I wish You a beautiful Saturday.  I would give anything and everything I have to be with You.

Have a great day.

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

To Live without You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good Night Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

To live without Your presence Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife...

is to not be nor feel alive.

I Miss You so much.

I Love You

Daddy

Today, a shooting star (meteor) streamed across the sky in front of me

Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Kwaku
Good afternoon Na'Zyia
Good afternoon Ife

I pray that You had a terrific day at school.  I hope that You enjoyed the last day of the week, in anticipation of this weekend!  Also, I hope You enjoy Your Thanksgiving.  You deserve this!

This morning, at 6:45 am, on my way to work, I was looking at the sky and I actually saw a meteor (which looked like a shooting star) cross the sky.  I could see so much detail in it.  However, I prayed that You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife, would come back to me.  I prayed real hard.  I also prayed for One more to come back to me.  Then I snapped into reality, and realized how silly it was for me to be wishing on a star.  I have to deal with reality. 

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I Miss You so much

Love,

Daddy

Good morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Happy Friday!!

Have a wonderful day at school today.  Please do Your best, and take pride in all that You do.  Do not let anyone tell You that You cannot accomplish any task.  If You put Your mind to it Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife; You can achieve anything in this world.  Anything!  Don't let anyone tell you differently.

I LOVE YOU Oshone
I LOVE YOU Amari
I LOVE YOU Kwaku
I LOVE YOU Na'Zyia
I LOVE YOU Ife

Love,

Daddy

Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good Night

Daddy Loves You

Good Night Kwaku, Good Night Na'Zyia, Good Night Ife, Good Night Amari, Good Night Oshone

Good Night Children,

I Love You and You are always on my mind.  I Miss You so much.  I pray that You rest well tonight Kwaku, Na'Zyyia, Ife, Amari, Oshone.

I pray that You have a great Friday!  The weekend is just around the corner, and I hope that You are excited. 

I pray that You are surrounded by Love, are guided and protected, and have Love in Your hearts.

Continuously

Love,

Daddy

Good afternoon Kwaku, Ife, Na'Zyia, Amari, Oshone

I hope that You have had a wonderful day at school, today.  I wish that I were able to pick You up after school, and drop You off.  I wish that I were able to practice some of Your school work with You, and teach You new ways of thinking so that it enabled the furthering of Your understanding of Your course materials.  I wish that I were able to hug You for comfort, when You were feeling down (which I pray is never).

I Love You
I Miss You

Kwaku; Your birthday is only one day removed, so I hope You still have an excitement and joy based on Your turning 11.  I Miss You

I Love You Children

Love,

Daddy

Good Morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good morning wonderful Children,

I Love You with all my heart.  I am thinking of You.  I hope that You have a great day at school.  Kwaku; I pray that You received everything You wanted for Your birthday.  I Love You so much.  Have a beautiful Thursday, October 6th/2016.

I am off to work, but You are steady on my mind.  Always positive thoughts, in spite of my heavy heart because I miss You so much.

I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Ife
I Love You Amari
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Oshone

Love,

Daddy

October 5th/2016

Kwaku,

I wish I could be with You...

"Sorry, is not enough"

I Love You Kwaku!! I Love You Oshone, Amari, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good Night Sweet Children,

I pray that YOU have had a wonderful day, today.  I hope school was exciting and that You were enthusiastic of learning about the laws of nature, of history, of geography, of French (our second language), of mathematics, science, creative writing and grammer, and of our first language; the English Language.

Kwaku, I wish I was there with You today on Your special day.  While at work, I spoke of You in the highest regard.  I told all my friends and co-workers that today is Your birthday, and that You are now 11 years old.  That I am so proud of You.  That You are strong, have courage, and have a passion in this world that is second to no one.  I said "he has a smile that will light up the room, and if You spoke with him, You would Love him".  I spoke so many words of positive energy of You because You are an amazing Child.  I Love You so much. 

I pray that You have enjoyed Your day to the fullest.  I went to two stores today, and bought You some more presents, out of my Love for You.  I just want to be the best dad that I can be, for You.  For Amari, Oshone, Ife, and Na'Zyia.

I Love You so much.  I Love You so much more.

I am so sorry.

Please forgive me.

I Miss You
I Love You

Love,

Daddy

Happy Birthday Kwaku!!! I Love You!

Happy Birthday Kijana,

Words just do not represent how far my Love travels for You.  Words are not enough..

I Love You

I Just Love You so Much!

Love,

Daddy

Happy Birthday Kwaku!! I Miss You!

I Love You Kwaku.  I pray You are having the BEST DAY EVER!!

(REMOTE CONTROL HELICOPTER)

Love,

Daddy

Wednesday, October 5th/2016

Happy Birthday Kwaku!!!!

Daddy Loves You!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWAKU!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWAKU KIJANA!!!

 

I Love You with all My Heart.

 

Daddy Love You and I wish to send You a special HAPPY BIRTHDAY, from my heart.  Today is Wednesday, October 5th/2016 and all I am thinking of is Your Joy.  Your Happiness.  I pray today is a very special day for YOU!

 

I Love You Kwaku,

 

Love Daddy

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWAKU!!!!

I LOVE YOU KWAKU!!!

I REALLY LOVE YOU KWAKU!!!

I MISS YOU KWAKU!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWAKU!!!

Kwaku

Kwaku,

You will never know..

How do I..

This is impossible

I LOVE YOU KWAKU

Good Night Kwaku, Oshone, Amari, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Miss You so Much.

I wanted to wish You sweet dreams tonight.  I wanted to say that I Love You above words.

I hope You have a wonderful day at school tomorrow.

Kwaku Kijana.. I just video taped myself in Your room with one of Your gifts.  I have done this for Your Brother and Sisters as well for their birthdays.  But on the eve of Your special day, I have to say that You are an amazing Young man, and that I Love You from the bottom of my heart.  I pray that You have a great day tomorrow and that You receive all that You want and more.

When I come home from work, I will post photo's of all the things I have bought for You because I Love You.  I will write You as well on Your birthday, because all I want is to be with You.

I Miss You so much.

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

Dear Kwaku, Oshone, Amari, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good afternoon Kwaku
Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Na'Zyia
Good afternoon Ife

I Miss You.  I Love You.  I am trying to be strong.  This is very hard for me, being without You.  I wish for You to know this.  It is very hard.

I am trying..

I hope that Your day at school was great!  You are moving onto mid week as today is Tuesday, October 4th/2016 and it is 3:37 pm.  I am always thinking of what You are doing at moments like these.  I am just always here and at work thinking of only You.

I Miss You

Kwaku!!  Tomorrow is Your day!!  I hope that You are so excited.  I will post photos of the gift I have for You as I'm certain You would have truly seen my Love through this birthday present.

I Love You so much Kwaku

Have a good afternoon and evening great Children.

I Truly Love You

Love,

Daddy

Good Morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Have a great day at school.  If only You knew or could know that You are all I think of.  All that I want is the best for You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

I Love You with all my heart.

Kwaku!!  Tomorrow is Your day.  I Love You so much.  Words are not able to express how much I Love You.  I will try to show You via photo's.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy

I am not Naive

Good Night Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love You. I pray that You are resting well.  I wish to express good energy.  I wish to express my Love for You.  ONLY Love. Only goodness.

Kwaku. It is now Tuesday, October 4th/2016.  We are well aware that Your birthday is tomorrow!  I aim to make You happy, and provide Joy in Your life.  So, I will put a photo up, of the gift I have for You.  It is for You, on Your birthday.  Only good energy.  Only Love, from a father to a son.  Only that which You cannot know, but I pray that You feel..

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

Good Night Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I wish I were with You...


Oshone
Amari
Kwaku
Na'Zyia
Ife


Kwaku...  no words

Good evening Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love You Kwaku, Amari, Ife, Na'Zyia, Oshone

I am thinking of You..

Continuously.

Love,

Daddy

Good afternoon Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Kwaku (2 more days!!)
Good afternoon Na'Zyia
Good afternoon Ife

I hope that You had a great day at school!  I pictured You in class, and truly hope that You were focused.  I have been sending my good energy to You.  I hope that You have received it well.

I Miss You

More than that;

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

Loving You Children

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku (2 Days!!!!)
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

I hope You have had a great weekend, and I wish You an amazing day at school today!  I Love You with all my heart and will be thinking of You.

Continuously.

Love,

Daddy

I Love You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I am thinking of You wishing You are resting well, with smiles on Your faces.

I Love You

Daddy

7:07 pm on Sunday October 2nd/2016

I know it is early, and You are not yet in bed Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.  However, I wish for You to have a blessed night, and hope You have had a wonderful Sunday. 

I Miss You
I Love You

I pray that You rest well tonight, are warm, and comfortable.  I pray that You have Love in Your hearts and are always surrounded by Love.  That You are protected, and cherished.  That You are constantly reminded of Your worth.

I Miss You
I Love You

I cannot breath without You and..

this hurts.

Love,

Daddy

Good afternoon Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku Kijana
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

You are always on my mind

Daddy

6:36 A.M. and Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife - I Love You

Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife .. You are all that I think of.   You are all that consumes my every thought because my heart beats for You.  I Miss You so much

I Love You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

Good Morning to You.  I wish to speak my mind, and from my very heart.  I am so sorry You are growing up in the absence of me, Your biological father.  Know that I am trying to be there for You, in Your lives.  I am trying so hard to find a way; to be with You. 

Again, good morning.  I strive to do all that is right, and I pray every night for the good of life.  For Your joy of life.  I know that it is going to be alright.  Please feel my good and positive energy.  It is for You. 

It is for You, this Love I express.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy

You are all I think of

I wish to say goodnight to You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

It is so hard to write these words, because my feelings go beyond words. 

I am sorry.  For a thousand years; just want to say I am sorry.

As the clock turned to midnight tonight, I watched the date change to October 2nd.  This means, for You Kwaku; there are only 3 more days until Your birthday. 

If only You could know how I want to be with You. If only You could know..

I am sorry.

Rest well, Kwaku, Oshone, Amari, Na'Zyia, Ife.

I Love You

Daddy

Good Night Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love You With All My Heart Oshone
I Love You With All My Heart Amari
I Love You With All My Heart Kwaku (Birthday great young man)
I Love You With All My Heart Na'Zyia
I Love You With All My Heart Ife

Rest so well tonight, and know that there is a person who thinks the world of You.  That person is Your father.

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

Good afternoon Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love YOU Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

Good Morning Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife

I Love You with all my Heart.  I Love You!

Happy Saturday!  I hope You have an amazing day today.  I want You to know that I Love You like crazy, and I Miss You like crazy. 

So Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife; smile brightly and bask in the joy of life.  I pray as always that You are protected and surrounded by Love.

Daddy Loves You