Tuesday 31 January 2017

9:42 am - Tuesday, January 31st/2017

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning KWAKU
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

I Love You

I have spent the morning studying.  I have spent this morning, as always, thinking of You.  I wish to share with You wise words that You may one day.. someday innerstand.

“What will bring peace is inward transformation, which will lead to outward action. Inward transformation is not isolation, is not withdrawal from outward action. On the contrary, there can be right action only when there is right thinking and there is no right thinking when there is no self-knowledge. Without knowing yourself, there is no peace. An Ideal is merely an escape, an avoidance of what is, a contradiction of what is. An ideal prevents direct action upon what is. To have peace, we will have to love, we will have to begin not to live an ideal life but to see things as they are and act upon them, transform them. As long as each one of us is seeking psychological security, the physiological security we need; food, clothing and shelter, is destroyed. Some of you will nod your heads and say, “I agree”, and go outside and do exactly the same as you have been doing for the last ten or twenty years. Your agreement is merely verbal and has no significance, for the world’s miseries and wars are not going to be stopped by your casual assent. They will be only stopped when you realize the danger, when you realize your responsibility, when you do not leave it to somebody else. If you realize the suffering, if you see the urgency of immediate action and do not postpone, then you will transform yourself.”

Jiddu Krishnamurti

I Miss You Oshone
I Miss You Amari
I Miss You Kijana
I Miss You Na'Zyia
I Miss You Ife

I Love You so much

Love,

Daddy

Monday 30 January 2017

10:52 am - Monday, January 30th/2017

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning KWAKU
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

When a person truly changes, they are pure.  They do not anticipate any returns.  The change is for the change, alone.  It exists in the absence of expectation.  My change, is void of external understanding.  Love is my change.  Love has finally revealed Love towards me.  I now know what Love is.  Love has spoken for eternity. 

I Love You; You
I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You KWAKU
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy

Sunday 29 January 2017

5:39 am - Sunday, January 29th/2017

You can take..
You can take almost everything from me..

But there is one thing that You cannot take;

You cannot take my Love..

My Love For You
My Love For Oshone
My Love For Amari
My Love For Kwaku
My Love For Na'Zyia
My Love For Ife

I Love You

Love,

Daddy

Saturday 28 January 2017

8:20 am - Saturday, January 28th/2017

Hello Oshone
Hello Amari
Hello Kwaku
Hello Na'Zyia
Hello Ife

Every day of my life, I ask for forgiveness for all the wrongs I have made and ask to remain on this new positive path.  I only wish to do good.

I only wish to do good.

Daddy

3:04 am - Saturday, January 28th/2017

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

I Love You with everything inside me.
..and it hurts to breathe without You.

I Miss You so Much

Daddy

Tuesday 24 January 2017

6:04 pm - Tuesday, January 24th/2017

Good Evening Oshone
Good Evening Amari
Good Evening Kwaku
Good Evening Na'Zyia
Good Evening Ife

I absolutely Miss You

Daddy

Monday 23 January 2017

5:42 am - Monday, January 23rd/2017

Good morning Oshone
Good morning Amari
Good morning Kwaku
Good morning Na'Zyia
Good morning Ife

I Miss You with everything I have.
I wish to do so much more for You.
I am trying to prove that I am worthy of being Your father.
A good father..
.. a good man

For You

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

Love,

Daddy




Friday 20 January 2017

6:45 am - Friday, January 20th/2017

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

I Love You with all my heart.
I Miss You from the bottom of my soul.

Please know that I write fewer and fewer letters because I am in incomparable pain.

This really.. really hurts.

..and it hurts.

Daddy

Wednesday 18 January 2017

Friday 13 January 2017

Great Lady

I can help..
More than any man.  Maybe not more, but as much as You may need.
No strings attached.  Please let me be the man that I am today, and look not upon me as the boy that I was. 

Really. 

Seriously.

I can help.

Thursday 12 January 2017

Oshone Osai Nkrumah Kahlil

Thursday, January 12th/2017

Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Kwaku
Good afternoon Na'Zyia
Good afternoon Ife

I Love You

I have just arrived back in town.  I am exhausted, physically and emotionally.  Yet, all I can think of is You.  I have not written in three days, and I have no excuse for this.  The reason I cannot excuse not writing to You is because You are always on my mind, and I wish to express all this Love that I have for You.

I apologize and the Most High to forgive me for my sins, every day, ten times a day.

I am sorry that I am not in Your lives, where I want to be.  For years.

I pray that You are happy and joyous, and that You receive all the positive experiences in life that You deserve.  I will always fight to be with You, connected again, so that I can offer all that I am and all that I have for You.

You deserve the best.

I Miss You

Love,

Daddy




Monday 9 January 2017

10:29 pm - Monday, January 9th/2017

Good Night Oshone
Good Night Amari
Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Ife

I wish that I were there to help You.  To hold You for comfort.  To offer insight into any of the confusion and or dilemma that You face.  To reassure You in the fact that You are great.  To teach You the values of being the best You, that You can be.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I Miss You

Love,

Daddy

Sunday 8 January 2017

11:18 pm - Sunday, January 8th/2017

Good Night Oshone
Good Night Amari
Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Ife

I am Missing You

Saturday 7 January 2017

1:35 pm - Saturday, January 7th/2017

Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Kwaku
Good afternoon Na'Zyia
Good afternoon Ife

Daddy Loves You more and more each day.
Don't have no doubts

Friday 6 January 2017

10:32 am - Friday, January 06th/2017

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife


10:24 am - Friday, January 06th/2017

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia Skye
Good Morning Ife Lia

I am seriously Missing You..
In the worst way.

I Love You So Much

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

This hurts..

I am trying to be with You

Wednesday 4 January 2017

7:40 am - Wednesday, January 4th/2017

Hi Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

I pray that You have a perfect day, today. 
I am thinking of You always, and praying too that we are one day allowed to be together again.

I posted an inscription for our home, on the front door. 

I wish to share it with You.



7:38 am - Wednesday, January 4th/2017

Good Morning Oshone
Good Morning Amari
Good Morning Kwaku
Good Morning Na'Zyia
Good Morning Ife

I Miss You with all my heart.
I Made a beat/song and dedicated to You.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

"Something Inside That I'm Missing"

I cried while making this for You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zbULvtApCVs

Tuesday 3 January 2017

5:15 pm - Tuesday, January 3rd/2017

Good Afternoon Oshone
Good Afternoon Amari
Good Afternoon Kwaku
Good Afternoon Na'Zyia
Good Afternoon Ife


I pray that You had a great day at school.
If a daddy could love You more than I, I would like to learn from this man. Learn what Love really is. I say these words because I trust that my Love for You is greater than the greatest Love of all.

I am trying.

I really am.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I will let my actions (if You dig deep enough, and research all that I am doing for You, You will see that I speak the truth) speak louder than these words.

I Miss You Oshone. So Much.
I Miss You Amari. From the Bottom of my heart.
I Miss You Kwaku. Our bond, that was broken will forever break my heart.
I Miss You Na'Zyia. You deserve to be truly Loved.
I Miss You Ife. It hurts to hear You cry.

I am forever sorry.

A daddy that is doing his best to be true.

Dad

Monday 2 January 2017

12:57 pm - Monday, January 2nd/2017

Good afternoon Oshone
Good afternoon Amari
Good afternoon Kwaku
Good afternoon Na'Zyia
Good afternoon Ife

I Miss You.

I wish to tell You a story;

On a warm sunny day in August, I was coming from the bank.  I was putting money into one of Your accounts when I was approached outside the bank by this gentleman.  He said to me "you have the face of a blessed soul".  We continued walking to my car, where I paused and listened to him speak.  He told me of the pain I put the Mother of my children to for years.  He told me that I was previously living with a girl and her room mate.  He told me that for the past year I have moved into a new home.  He said "you have recently met two woman that if you do not cut out of your life, you will never again see your children or their mother".  Then he said, "hold out your hand".  I held out my hand and he put a piece of paper in the palm of my right hand.  He asked that I close my eyes and close my hand.  He said "when I tell you, open your hand and read what is written on the paper".  I opened my eyes, and on the paper was written "December 21st". 

He said, "brother, I need you to remember this date and mark it".  "This is the day your family will return to you". 

I cried at that very moment.

I cried ten times harder when Wednesday, December 21st came and went.  I thought, "but I cut out the two women he was referring to, from my life".  The two women I met are singers or recording artists and I immediately told them, in August, that this man told me the most wonderful prophecy.  I told them that we can no longer work together because my family is my first priority. 

Tears fall down my cheeks as I write this because I feel I may never again see You Oshone, Amari, Kwaku, Na'Zyia, Ife.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Miss You

I Miss You so much..
My heart breaks every single day.

Love,

Daddy

Sunday 1 January 2017

9:21 pm - Sunday, January 1st/2017

Good Night Oshone
Good Night Amari
Good Night Kwaku
Good Night Na'Zyia
Good Night Ife

I Love You with all my heart.  2017 is here, and I hold Love in my heart.

I Love You Oshone
I Love You Amari
I Love You Kwaku
I Love You Na'Zyia
I Love You Ife

I Miss You Oshone
I Miss You Amari
I Miss You Kwaku
I Miss You Na'Zyia
I Miss You Ife

I really Love You

.. and I really Miss You

Love,

Daddy