Kwaku.. I Love You!!!

Kwaku,

When you cried, I was listening.  I have heard you.  I fought to get to you.  I am fighting to get to you.  I know your heart, as my heart is your heart. 

I love you in a way that is spiritual.  Our connection is strong and that is why I know what you were going through when you called for me.  I know.  I have called for you, and I have tried desperately to answer your own calls.  They are not allowing me to be there, and when I try, I am refused.  I need you to trust and know this to be true.  I will prove this to you, when the time comes. 

I have made mistakes that have nothing to do with my love for you, and your sisters and brother.  The mistakes I have made are the reason I am not allowed to be with you any longer.  Not because I do not want to give you the love a Father dreams of giving his children.  But because I am not looked upon as a good person in this life by those who control my visitation with you.  I am sorry.  I am beyond sorry, because I did not see this in our future.  No way did I expect that you would be taken away from me.  No matter how hard I try, hate for me prevents my access to you. 

I am sorry.  But I will never give up.  I won't, because I Love You!

Our time walking to school, and from school.  The stories I would tell you and how you paid attention and laughed so beautifully.  The walks from school, when you would run to me with your arms out ready to hug me.  These mean so much to me.  The games we played, on Nintendo Wii, DS, DSI, and how great you were at all those games we played.  I will not mention them here, but believe me, if.. when we do speak, I will remind you.  In your bedroom upstairs, I have all these games, and a big tv.  I have so much more for you.  I have books I want to share, that will elevate your mind, and allow you the chance to excel in school.  I have no doubt you are doing extremely well, it's just that the love I have to give, and the insight into problems and solutions to through life's journey can only benefit your life. 

This is why I will never give up on being a great Dad for you.

I Love You, Kwaku and I will always Love You.  I will write more in the coming days, weeks, months and years.  However long it takes for us to be together again.

I Love You